Josh Richards little sister

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This chapter is kind of more of raising awareness for mental health and those who suffer with constant panic attacks.

it was a week before Josh found out what i was doing in school and the reason why i wanted to drop out. it was all going well until today. until my mental health would show up for the first time in front of the boys.

I headed downstairs and it was 12 in the afternoon. The boys looked at me with smirks on their faces. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone today so I ignored them.

Br: lazy richards has made it
Bl: she's come to raid the fridge again

They all laugh as i slam the fridge door shut and look in the cupboards instead because i didn't want anything cold.

J: I'm making pancakes for everyone do u want some sofie?
So: ... *i ignored him*
J: Can you please not be rude, i'm asking a question, it's a simple yes or no.
So: ... *again*
Br: She woke up a zombie
J: SOFIA!
So: WHAT!
J: Pancakes...yes? no?
So: no
J: what the hell is wrong with you now?
So: nothing it's fine
Br: theirs clearly something wrong kiddo, want to talk about it?
So: Bryce please just shut up and leave me alone
J: He's being nice Sofia, don't be so rude

I just ignored him and got my self a glass of water and chugged it. I started to feel panicked, i don't know what is happening. I place the glass down but i missed the counter, it fell and smashed on the floor. I snapped back into reality.

J: what the hell are you doing?!
So: sorry i-i sorry
Qu: clearly her heads fucked
Ja: Quinton bro shut up!
So: i-i'm s-sorry
Br: it's okay kiddo, don't worry about it i'll sort it

I started to slowly step back and i was losing consciousness again. I sat on the couches and began to fiddle with my necklace I think I was having a panic attack. My foot began tapping and my breathing got heavier and heavier. I look up to see Jaden, his voice was muffled till he crouched down in-front of me.

Ja: hey hey, breathe, in and out

I ignored him and it got worse. He sat next to me and pulled me into a hug, tears began falling and I see Josh and Bryce come over and sit with me.

Br: Soph what's wrong?
So: I don't know, i'm fine.

I pull away from Jaden and carried on with what i was doing, I grabbed cereal as the boys stared at me while Jaden, Josh and Bryce were still sat in the same place looking at me and at each other confused. I sat on the island with the boys and began eating my breakfast while they just stared at me.

So: stop staring at me and get on with your own shit. weirdos.

They all looked away while i scrolled on my phone and ate my cereal. I was finished and put my bowl in the sink. I needed fresh air so I sat on the benches outside near the pool till someone sat next to me. It was Josh. I rolled my eyes and looked away.

Jo: what the hell was that back there
So: it was nothing Josh. leave it.
Jo: No i won't leave it. what the hell happened
So: I DONT KNOW JUST GO AWAY
Jo: Ah i see, your doing it for attention, like always, it always has to be about you
So: shut the fuck up
Jo: the rules still apply, don't cuss at me, i just want to know why you did that. Smashed a glass, was rude to the boys when they tried to help you.
So: yeah okay whatever it was for attention okay, i just want someone to care!

I lied to him. Why am i doing this.

Jo: go apologise to the boys, i seriously can't believe you Sofia, just as i thought i was seeing progress in you clearly u aren't changing.
So: yeah okay whatever
Jo: go apologise please
So: no
Jo: NOW
So: josh just leave me alone

He grabbed my upper arm and dragged me into the kitchen where the boys were on their phones.

So: get off me!
Jo: apologise to them right now!
So: for what? i haven't done anything.
Jo: being rude and for bragging attention
Br: bro leave it, it's fine dude
Jo: she did that act for attention she told me herself.
Ja: josh listen to Bryce just leave it we are fine

I tried to walk away but Josh pushed me to the ground and took off his belt before folding it in half. He put it over his shoulder before hitting my arm with it. A loud scream left my body before the boys tried to pull josh away from me but he wouldn't stop, he would not stop hitting me. Tears fell down my face as I managed to get up and run upstairs to my bedroom before shutting and locking the door. Banging was then heard on the door.

Jo: you are to not lock doors in this house do you hear me.
Ja: JOSH MAN STOP IT!

The door swung open as the locks sprung off the wall. I ran to my bed hiding under the covers. He pulled them off me before hitting me again and again.

So: STOP! STOP IT! STOP!
Ja: BRYCE! BLAKE! ANYONE GET UP HERE!

I see the boys run into the room while josh was STILL hitting me. They managed to pull him away as Jaden pulled me into a hug.

So: i want it to stop
Ja: what? what do you want to stop?
So: i panic all of the time, i want josh to beleive me, i can't tell him about this i just can't, i don't want him to be worrying about me Jaden. I don't know what to do.
Ja: breathe sofia, in and out

I slowly followed Jaden's breathing pace and i soon calmed down, i didn't want to let go of him but i guess i didn't need to as he laid down in the bed with me.

Ja: i'm here to talk whenever you need it. okay?
So: thank you jae.
Ja: thanks for the nickname, soph
So: it's okay

I smile. And i talked. Jaden made me feel like i could talk to him about anything. It was so cute of him to listen to me. He helped me in ways i didn't know anyone could. He told me how to over come the fears i have and the sudden panic moments i have. He told me he understands me and how much i meant to him even if we have known w for a short period of time. He was cute.

Its getting juicier and juicier 😋