falling over you

part 10:valentine

James:
I wanna crack my skull open with a screwdriver.
It's been a week since the party.its been a nice week,however at the particular moment I am surrounded by loveydovey couples everywhere.
"OOOH I love you sooooo muchhhh nathannnn"a girl would say and then her boyfriend:
"I love you too,my sugar free,no cholestrole,strawberry extract aroma,heavy baked,three layer potato muffinnnn!"
Ugh.gag me with a spoon and throw me off a cliff.
Couples have no right to rub their short term-relationships in my face.its not fair.
Yes,I'm being whiny,and yes-im a BIT bitter,but I have a point.single people should not be discriminated against like this.

February fourteenth.
Valentine day.
Love is in the air.or dread.depends on who you are.

Why can't something romantic happen to me for shits sake?

To top it off,our intellectual wasteland of a school is also holding a valentine dance.
I could skip it.and I intend on doing exactly that.

But I want to.....shoot my shot.
With maria.
I doubt she'd go with me.hopefully,though,her standards are low enough for me.

Or maybe we are just that.aquaintances.
Or maybe she could see me as more.i could just pull out the "we could go to the dance as freinds?" card.
The only problem is-
I've never done this before.i don't know the ettiquites.
Or how to act nonchalant.
Or not start going down a wormhole everytime I'm faced with a decision.
SHIT,WHY CANT IT BE EASY?!
                      .............
I waited for her after our routinely history class.she picked up her books and her  worn out cowprint notebook and looked up."hey,Jamie"
"Hi"fuck I didn't plan this out
We start walking to the door,and I step back,"ladies first".hopefully I was funny.
"Why thank you, distinguished gentleman"She smiles and starts walking.
We're in the hallway.i turn to her.
"Soo......"
I see a faint trace of a smile playing on her lips probably because of how stupid I look right now.
"Sooo......"
"Maria"
"Jamie"
This is hard.
"No,you can't copy my homework,if thats what's up",she says
"Oh you got me!",I say sarcastically
She chuckles.
"No,it's actually umm-"the worse she can say is no,Jamie."you going to the dance?"
'i might if someone asks me,why?"
"Do you maybe wanna.........",I shrug,"maybee like,uh-"
"Yes",she answers.
"What?"
"I'll come with you,if you want me too."
OH GOSHHAHHHAHA
"oh,ok,yeah,great-i was really stressing",I shake my head.a relieved chuckle escapes my lips.
"Well,don't worry anymore,hearthrob,you bagged a date!",she punches my shoulder lightly.
I chuckle.
"Yeah,I don't know how I did it".
"Well,congrats.you have my blessing"
I laugh,still kind of in disbelief."yeah, thanks, appreciate it".