I'm Louis | l.t

nine

(The last chapter is in Luna's pov.)

I hold tightly Louis' arm that's squeezing back mine. I can feel how nervous he is of the nameless situation. Harry opened the door as we walked in the hospital and I instsntly felt scared. Scared because Harry left me in the dark, not telling me what is going on. Afraid because of the image of losing Louis. I know I can't be with him as long as I'd want to be, but still I can't nor don't want to let go now. Past these times I've been with Louis, I've grown to see that he is a very, very kind man. He's happy, light and nice. A perfect man who is too good to be with me on the earth - to be with the ones that love him.

I don't have time to protest when Louis' hand slips away from mine, searching for my waist and pulling me into him. He's afraid, you can see it. His body is shaking as it holds onto mine, hot and shaky breath hitting my neck as he hides his face in there. "Louis, everything is okay", I say, regretting my words. I have no idea is everything okay or will it be.

I search for his arm and slide my hand down, intertwining our fingers. His other hand is still tightly around mine as my other arm runs on his back, trying to calm down the shakiness he has. "Guys, we need to hurry, please", I hear Harry mumble, seeing his pale face when I look at him. I back away from Louis, not wanting to. I would like to lay in bed with him and hold him; I want to take the pain away from him. He does not deserve the pain that he has.

We start to follow Harry again, who walks pretty fast. I try to help Louis as much as possible so he doesn't crash into anyone. When we stop, we stand about feet away from Harry. Louis's body is pressed against mine, more like side to side. He looks down on the floor as Harry turns back to us. "Okay, the doctors will come and take care of Louis, Luna, you'll come with me", soon the doctors took Louis away from me as they came from behind us, leaving nothing but a cold feeling on my hand.

Harry took a grip of my arm, his large hand wrapping around almost my whole arm. He took me out of the hospital, walking,to his car and opening the doors, putting me in the car. He walks around the car and open the door to his seat. "What is going on, Harry?" I ask as he closes the door.

Harry takes a deep breath and turns to me. "His time is running out", he says, making my chest hurt and my heart at the same.

"What? He seems completely fine", I responded after a second. "Are you sure it's Louis?" I ask. There could be some kind of a mistake.

"It is Louis. The doctors said that because he has been taking his pills the cancer didn't spread as fast but his body's started to... Reject the only source of time we had. That's all I get to know because I'm not family", he sighs.

"Does Louis know?"

"Yes, of course."

"Why didn't he tell me?" I whisper and look down my lap.

"Luna", Harry starts. "Even though you and Louis met about a week or so ago, you mean much to him. Through his life people have been judging him, not wanting to be with him because of his blindness and cancer. You are the first to see the real him in years."

The words made my heart melt and break at the same time. How am I supposed not to cry now? "Can I go and see him? I want to", I whisper, holding back tears. I'm not sure how much time he has, but I'm sure that it's not much. I know I will cry when Louis goes away from me, I just know. He has a big place in my heart and he will rip it apart when he goes.

"Yes. It's open for couple more hours", he nods. "Come on, lets go."

After we went inside the hospital, Harry took me in front of the door of Louis's room. He said he'll be waiting in the car. When he left the hospital, I stood in front of the door, afraid to open it. When I opened the door slowly, I saw Louis on the bed, sitting, "Hey Louis", I whispered and walked to the bed, again, taking his hand in mine.

"I don't have a lot of time anymore, Luna. It's better if you leave", he whispered without even looking at me. The words do hurt me but there is no way I am going to leave now. I take my shoes off along with my jacket and bag. The cheery boy was gone and replaced with a completely broken person.

"I'm not leaving", I whisper. "But why didn't you tell me?" The way a pain flashes across his face tells me that he heard the disappointed feeling in my voice.

"Because", he takes a deep breath. "I finally found something perfect, Luna. Or something perfect finally found me, it doesn't matter, the fact is that I got something perfect in my life. And I just don't want to let that go. I don't want to let you go so I thought that... If I would just pretend to be fine I would be with you forever" he looked down on his lap and sighed. "Turns out forever isn't on our side."

I sit down on the bed, climbing on Louis's lap and wrapping my hands around his neck, the fear of crushing him going away once he wraps his arms around me too. I feel warm if not hot tears dancing down my cheeks, dropping on Louis's skin. "Shh, love, don't cry", he rubs my back.

"I'm sorry", I whisper and pull back, whipping away my tears with the back of my hand. "I don't want you to go", I mumble, sighing right after. Without an hesitate I lean on and press my lips against his. He sighs into the kiss and places one of his hands on my thigh and one on my waist. The first time I feel like my lips are meant to move along with his lips, like they're meant to be together. The softness of his lips feels like heaven as we kiss slowly but passionately.

It was like all the heartbreaks and moments where I thought I unconditionally loved the guy happened for a reason: For us. Me and Louis. I felt flawless with him, he made me feel like the world stopped spinning around and the people freeze.

Him and me, till the end of the most important days of our lives.

"Love", Louis mumbles into the kiss. He pulls back and lets his forehead press against mine. "I won't go anywhere", he whispers and wraps both of his hands around my waist, falling on the bed and pulling me against him, chest by chest.

"Promise?"

"Promise."

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I'm not sure am I disappointed or not