you wake up in the morning feeling so drained, the thoughts and voices in your head constantly asking why you woke up for yet another exhausting day.
you want to cry and curl up in a ball in your bed and never leave but you have to get up and put a smile on your face, wear a presentable outfit and respond to the question "are you okay?" with a simple "yes" or "i'm just tired" with the best fake smile you can put on.
once they turn their back the smile falters and you feel even more exhausted than you were before.
the day goes on and by far almost everyone you've talked to have asked you the same question, "are you okay" and for all those times you've answered "yes" hoping to satisfy everyone and stop the same question from being repeated all over again.
except it doesn't satisfy them, and the question doesn't stop to be repeated, because once they look into your eyes they notice, they notice how drained you are but they don't seem to care. the question "are you okay?" it's quite a one answer question, they ask it excepting you to say 'yes' so they can move onto their day. but what if you say no?
what if you really tell them what's on your mind?
what if you really tell them everything that's bothering you?
what if you tell them everything all those voices in your head are saying?
what if you pull up your sleeves and show them the fresh and old scars that rest on your wrist and arms?
but obviously you don't want to seem like a burden and you don't want to worry someone else with a pain that's not theirs.
so you simply answer,
"yes i'm fine."
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I'm honestly not sure how i feel about this i know it's so bad but it's currently two in the morning on a Tuesday so don't expect much from me.
this book is quite simply a vent book and i just want everyone to know that if they ever need someone to talk to or ever feel like you can't do anything anymore my dms are always open and that ik so proud of you 💗
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