Have you felt yourself drifting away from your friends even yourself. You get addicted to things that you never thought you would hoping it's slowly killing you amd your demons, because it takes away all the pain..and feel as though no matter what you do you will never be good enough? Everyday is the same the voices in my head won't go away, and I see no point in being here if the only feeling I feel is sorrow and feeling so damn worthless...I wish i knew who exactly I was...and i just want to feel like i'm worth someone's time, i want to be able to feel happy...i wish i can smile and mean it..I hide all this pain, and say i'm "fine" but that's the thing; i'm not and at this point I feel like I never will be happy again. I will never be able to feel loved. I just want to like i belong but i don't i'm everything that don't belong in this world...i don't belong anywhere... Oh god it's driving me crazy I don't know what's real anymore ...i hate this. I hate all of this..i hate me.
