Sidemen one shots

Minimerkaa aka minishaw part three

'That's a lie you have me.'

'I care about you.'

Some of Josh's words play back in my mind. He said he cared about me but Harry said the same and he's with Ethan.

"Simon you need to eat." Josh's comes in my room, "Don't you dare say your not hungry."

"But I'm not." I reply.

"Come on we're going KFC."

"Bring me back some chips." I say.

"No your coming." He grabs one of my arms, "Vikk come help."

He's walks in the room and grabs my other arm,"Your coming Simon."

They drag me out my room and down the stairs.

"Simon please." Josh says, he and Vikk were still trying to drag me out the door.

"But I don't really want to." I say struggling to move out of their grip.

"I will force you Simon." They start to drag me again.

"Okay okay. Stop it!" They let got of my arms and I follow them to the car, "I'm not eating though."

"You are." The both say at the same time.

"Whatever." I roll my eyes.

*Time skip*

"Simon you need to eat!" Josh screeched in my ear.

"No Josh."

"Why you do this?" Tears run down his face, "Simon you kill me."

"I'm going." Vikk stands up and basically runs out the door.

"Simon I care about you and all you do is hurt me." He wipes tears from his face.

"Hurt you? How?"

"First of all I was hurt when you got with Harry but you was happy so I didn't say anything. Now you've broke up I wasn't happy but relived as I had a chance." He said this all really quickly,"Then you refused to leave your room and wouldn't eat. Don't you think that's hurting me seeing you in so much pain. This happened for a month and when you were finally getting back to normal the video came out. I thought you may finally get over harry but you got even more depressed and saying you had nobody. I was the one making sure you didn't kill yourself and you say theirs no one. Think how I feel about this. You claim there's nobody but I'm always their. I always have been. It hurts me to see you upset and not being able to change that. I don't want to see you hurt and that hurts me."

Tears roll down Josh's face and tears threaten to full down mine.

"I'm sorry Josh but I can't just get over somebody like that."

"I know that but your making yourself ill over it and I don't want that for you. Your pushing me away and I'm the one who cares. I care to much to let you get over this your way. It won't work." People in KFC are all staring at us.

"I'm sorry Josh I got to go." I throw some money on the table and grab my chips, "I will talk to you tonight."

I walk around for an hour eating my chips until I decide to walk back to the sidemen house. I put my key in the door and unlock it thinking the house is empty.

When I go up stairs I see Josh sitting on my bed, "Why did you leave." He said.

"I couldn't talk then okay. I needed to think."

"About what?" His voice was cold.

"About what you said and I guess you were right." I look right at him, "I don't really think. You have been their all the time and I haven't appreciated that."

*One month later*

"Simon you coming?" Josh shouted from down stairs.

"I might skip this one and stay in." I reply back phone in hand.

"Simon you need to eat for god sake. You not going back to that again." He runs up the stairs quickly.

"No no. I'm eating look." I had a half eaten bowl of noodles on my bed, "I'm just not feeling up to going out."

"Okay but if you go back to how you were i will slap you."

"So scared." I laugh, "But for real I'm not."

As soon as he left I put on the video again. Ethan and Harry being all cute and boyfriendy. This does bother me anymore. If anything I feel happy that two of my friends are together. I start eating my noodles and think how I'm going to tell Josh. Ever since the day in KFC I realised Josh had feelings for me and I kinda did for him. I wasn't over Harry so I couldn't do anything but now I can.

Not knowing how to say what I feel I write it in a letter.

Dear Josh,

I would like to say something's but I can't quite get the words out. Every time I try I freeze. That's why I stayed in tonight I needed to do this.

1. Thanks for being their for me when no one else was. Your the reason I didn't get put in hospital.

2. Thanks for being supportive even when it upset you

3. I love you. I kinda had feeling for you the day you said you was their for me but I wasn't over Harry. Now I don't even care about him and Ethan. I'm happy for them and want to be happy with you.

Simon x

I put the note on his bed and text Harry.

Thanks dude and I'm happy for you-Simon

Everything is going to be perfect.

AUTHORS NOTE: Thanks for reading and do you want a mini chapter about when finds the note or something along those lines. I might have that done for Saturday as its dartford show so I will down their with a few mates spending money on shit we do want or need. 😊

Hugs kisses and peace ✌🏻️