Messed me up (central cee x male character)

"oakley"

*Oakley's POV*

we've been whatever we are for a month and a half now. sleepovers, make outs, hand jobs, blowjobs, but no sex. Jaden was clear on the fact that he wasn't ready for that, and i respect that.

we've fought A LOT. at least once a day or every other day. technically it's not like really fighting but we argue and disagree every. single. day. it's hard i think i really like him but he's just so uncomfortable with the fact that i am a guy. And it's simply hard for me to emphasize cause im so comfortable and like glad that he is a guy.

he's coming over today, he texted me saying he needs to make out with me. and that he's not gay. in his words i quote he texted me:
"i need to make out with you right now oaks. i'm not gay"
like get this man a reward for gaslighting himself so badly. like babes if you make out with a man you are gay.

my thoughts are interrupted when he knocks on the door. i open it. he doesn't say anything but push me inside, turn around lock the door and then kiss me. it pisses me off that he's just so paranoid of people, himself, me. it's so annoying.
i stop the kiss.

"Jaden" is all i say.

"Yeah?" he says back tapping his fingers against his thigh clearly uncomfortable.

"i don't like this"

"yeah no, me neither this is gay" he says back turning around to leave.

"Jaden!" i'm shocked that he's that ashamed.

"Yeah?" he says turning around again.

"i like you, like i really like you, but i hate you"

"oaks, what the fuck are you talking about?"

"THAT! like one second it's "oaks" or it's "i wanna make out " and then the next second it's "this is gay, im not gay, im leaving" like WHAT make up your mind it's pissing me off!"" i explode just can't take it anymore, he's so amazing in the best ways but some agonizing in all the worst. i need him to find a middle ground.

"oaks- or uh oakley, i like you too. in a not gay way- or i guess in a gay way, but im not sure okay. i'm trying to figure some things out without having to admit that the end result is the obvious fact that im gay!" he blurts out awkwardly, i can tell he's trying to explain what he's feeling but also still embarrassed by it.

"i wanna have sex with you, and then i want you to me by boyfriend"

"oakley"