UPDATES ONCE A MONTH
❝𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒆𝒙𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖?❞
Asael didn't want to marry, let alone be forced into it by his parents, with a woman he didn't know. But to avoid any conflict and continue being the good son i...
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There's nothing quite like waking up in the embrace of a man, with the scent of incense permeating my nose, and an awful lot of unwelcome questions barging into my mind.
Everything was still foggy when I woke up around an hour ago, so I snuggled myself closer against my supernatural companion in hopes of getting more winks of sleep. Suddenly, something hit me, like my skin was electrified and my mind was forced into a clearer clarity of what was happening.
Of what I have just done.
God what have I done?
"Salie."
Is he awake? Wait, did he even sleep? He doesn't need to, does he?
"Be quiet."
I gulp and try not to move. Am I breathing too heavily, too lightly, or too fast? Maybe he'll think I'm still asleep if I focus on my breathing.
"Your anxiety is barging into my senses." His fingers brush my hair, nails lightly scratching at my scalp. "Hush down."
How can I? How can I just... calm down? It's impossible to ignore all these thoughts running in my head. It's impossible not to berate myself after what I did last night - what I let myself do with and to Lucifer.
I committed a big sin.
"Salie."
I went against God.
"Salie?"
Even after I pledged in the altar months ago that I will walk a new path without disobeying His teachings and His way. Never again.
"Asael."
But I did. And...!
"Asael!"
I suck in a quick, almost suffocated breath, eyes wide open staring back into Lucifer's gorgeous red eyes all dimmed in the morning light. His black hair is a curly mess, pale skin drifting to a warm tone, and he's frowning.
My shaky hands freeze as he squeezes them with one hand. After another series of gasps, I blink, letting hot, sinful tears blur his perfect image.
"And yet..." I mumble and bite my lower lip, as if saying it out loud will make it more real than it already is. As if my beating heart would stop the moment I come to terms with the truth.
I committed a sin against God. I pledged never to sleep with another before marriage anymore. I pledged never to engage in such a relationship with the same sex anymore. I pledged never to let the devil tempt me away from God. I pledged never to disobey God anymore.
I pledged to be a better person. To be a devoted follower of God. But I still couldn't do it after all this time. I failed. I sinned. I strayed. And yet...
