CHOI EMPIRE Book 5: jeon wonwoo

CHAPTER 12: responsibility

Jung Kyunsoo:

Sometime I want to throw myself out from the fucking building because of stupid decision I always end up making .

Three month !

I mentally scoff on my stupidity  from yesterday incident. 

I must have hit my head somewhere that I fucking made that deal with devil himself.

And if I fail to assist properly on operation without getting faint In OT then only devil himself know what the fuck he is going to ask from me.

I took deep Breath to calm the boiling anger inside me . its not the time to dwell on the thing which already happen and I can't do shit about it.

So I decided to focus on what can I do right now , which is apologize professor kim first for what happen yesterday in OT

I knock on his door before entering inside.

Their he was sitting behind his table as usual working on few documents scattered on the table.

"Professor " I called in low but firm voice trying my best not to sound less guilty. 

He stare at me with frown but didn’t said anything so I continue "I just want to apologise for my yesterday's behaviour . I'm sorry "

"And Thats all ?"

"I..." Suddenly I feel lost of my words , not sure what to say next. I don't have nerve to gave fake promise like last time nor I want to beg infront of him for not firing me because that Only one person can do.

And I would prefer to die instead of begging that jerk for my job.

"Here take them " he put the white medicine box and slide it towards my direction.

"What are those ?"

"Benzodiazepines"

I frown these medicine are used to reduce symptoms of anxiety attack .

"I don't take medicine for my anxiety attack , professor "

"I know , thats why I'm recommending you this "

"But -" I try to object because I knew they don't do much good and I have to fight my anxiety myself so I decided not to depend on small relief tactics .

but before I could say anything he stop me by raising his hand in no excuse gesture.

"I knew you don't want to take them but after seeing yesterday situation its better to consider them. I'm not telling You to depend on them completely just for few weeks so we can reduce your anxiety and focus on what is most important "

I frown "what are you trying to imply professor ?"

"That from todays onward I'm going to check myself on your progress and you will do OT practice under my supervision "

My mouth hung open in surprise as I mumble "why ?"

He raises his brows at me "Do I needed a reason aside from the promise I made to your mother to take care of you as my own daughter or I gave words to you to be your mentor in this journey of yours"

"No- I mean..." A huge smile came across my face "Ofcourse you don't need them "

He shrugged "indeed afterall I'm your god father so legally I'm your guardian "

"But you never behave like one in hospital "

"Because-"

"Because you keep professional and personal life seprate " I mock in his own tone cutting his word inbetween.