Of my actions, but I did it anyway. I knew me attempting to walk out that door would result in something bad, but I did it anyway. But now there's nothing I can do.There's no way for me to stop this. There's no way for me to get out. Now it's just me alone with my thoughts as per usual. I never got a proper goodbye into the friends. I left behind. I hope they understand. I hope they understand I care. I always have.
I believe I'm a good person. I really do. Though I may not show it all the time. I wanted to do something good for the world. I wanted to become rich and famous and donate it all to charity until every last cent was gone. But I knew I would love myself to do it. I knew I wouldn't live long.
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I could have had more time...
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But what would I use it for?
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I've never seen myself getting past 20
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And here I am, fulfilling this prophecy
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But did I ever really want this?
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To die, I mean. Did I want to? Or did I want to be free of pain.
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But now I won't even get that. Will I?
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I guess this is the end. From here, I can tell you.
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Thank you.
