THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

Chapter-28

I suggest you all to read the previous chapter before reading this one...

Taehyung's POV

Flashback:

It all began since the day I started to stan him and the group.
I liked all the members equally but he was different. I liked him, maybe a little more than the other members. I adored him and wanted to cherish him throughout my life. But I knew my situation he was an idol and I was his fan.
He was an idol who was loved the most by his fans, an idol who puts his fans ahead of himself.

An idol who gives endless love to his fans, I got love too and unfortunately I reciprocated too well. Then I decided to just look at him as my idol and started saving money for the concert.
Which I got through a lucky draw.
After I thought I was gonna fall harder for him I decided to distract myself and started working for longer hours at the cafe.
And then I felt that it wasn't love but just attraction.

But once I saw him backstage before the fansign when I was in his arms I lost it, I lost my mind.
I fell harder this time.
Everytime I looked into his eyes I was lost in them, the eyes which were sparkling and held the entire galaxy in them.
That was not it he hugged me later during the fansign, I felt my soul leaving my body.
Me in his arms holding his shoulders while he held onto my waist and placed his head on my shoulder.
I felt a millions of butterflies in my stomach, i was gonna pass-out.

Every minute, every second I was with him that day ignited my love for him again.
And here I was madly in love with an idol who probably thought of me as his fanboy, just like a million others.

All the time I spent with him that day felt so precious, those subtle touches and his soft voice while he talked to me did so many things to me.
That's when I realised I was so in love with him and it wasn't just some sort of attraction.

Once the day ended I felt bad cuz I wouldn't be able to spend more time with him, even if it was an idol-fan interaction.
I walked back home and laid down on the bed while all the precious memories from the concert and fan sign flooded my mind.
I dozed off witha sleep on my face, a sleep I never had in ages,the best sleep.

I woke up the next day while Hyungsik was shouting on top of his lungs.
That's when I got to know that Jungkook, the person the love had posted a picture of us together on Instagram and tagged and had written that he met a cute fan today!

I was on cloud nine I didn't know I could capture Jungkook's attention but I did even though I still don't know how.

That was not the only thing he even texted me and asked if we could be friends but since I wanted to know if it was actually him since he texted me through his private account and I didn't know that I did  some crazy stuff.
But still we ended getting close.
Days went by and we kept texting each other.

My personal diary was mistook for Jungkook's fan gift so I ended up giving him my diary.
But since he never mentioned it anytime during our chats I felt relieved that he didn't read it or maybe he left it at the company and didn't take it home with him.
I didn't want him to read the diary cuz the stuff I wrote in there is not appropriate.
And I didn't want to create a wrong impression of myself.

Then days passed we spoke regularly, but since I had been working late for the past few days we couldn't text much in the night.
But one day while I was preparing to close the shop since Seojoon hyung said he had a date I had to wait and close the cafe alone.
But to my surprise Jungkook showed up. I think he didn't know I work here i guessed.
Once we made eye contact there was tension in the air.
We had a staring contest, but I felt like my heart would fall out of my rib cage soon if we continued looking at each other like that.

But we broke away soon, all thanks to Seojoon hyung.

Every word he says was etched in my heart the way he asked me to eat with him and the small conversations with little giggles here and there was all I craved for with my loved ones, and when it was with him i felt elated.
That's the sort of days I hope spending with the love of my life and here I was. Sitting infront of him while enjoying even silence that spread between us while we chewed the food.

Every moment with him felt magical, everything felt like a dream where he was right next to me and looked lovingly.
I didn't know if I was assuming and seeing things or if it was actually happening.
But that's how I thought he looked at me but then I thought maybe that's how he looked at everyone and I was not that special.

When he said help me with cleaning up and wiped those utensils clean while I washed them felt so domestic to me, for me that's how couples behaved. And it felt very romantic for me cuz I always thought that they would help each other so they could spend more time together and also finish the task faster and spend it doing some other things.
And now when I was doing all of these with him i felt tons of butterflies in my stomach, I felt my breath getting heavier.
And I left sigh filled with contentment but also a hint of fear and sadness, thinking if it would always be like this.

When he waited for me to close the cafe and said that he would drop me I felt my blood rush to my face.
I denied initially cuz obviously I didn't want him to do that our of compulsion, but then her forces me and dragged me to his car and drove off.
Everything felt new to me, it was the first time someone ever took so much effort for me.
I felt happy.

Then we continued texting each other and later he left abroad for his schedule.
He didn't mind telling me all those, he trusted me enough to share things like these.
It was our daily routine to text each other but one day I received a call and that was from him.
But the call declined immediately.
I was curious, and later thought that maybe he butt dialled and wanted to shrug off the thought but somewhere in me I felt like I had to call back atleast to check if he was fine.
So I did it, called him and waited for him to pick up the call.
I was hella anxious and was biting my nails.

But once he picked the call I could feel the fear he had as well, I could feel it from his voice.
And this time I had full on butterflies in my stomach as we talked to each other and when he said that he missed me. Everything felt like a dream to me where I was texting and talking to my crush.
That's when I realised that it took seconds to fall in love again with him and how fast my feelings were growing for him.
I was insecure. I was scared of rejection, but at the end of the day the happiness of your loved ones keep you happy. So he was ready for anything. But somewhere he never wanted to let go of Jungkook.
Slowly we promised each other to meet at Jungkook's house on the day he would return.
I didn't know if he was talking seriously or if all of that was a joke.
But went with the flow, went to his house and cooked all his favourite dishes.
He decided that he would leave the place before Jungkook returned back but unfortunately Jungkook arrived earlier than expected.

I was scared a wanted to run away from him so I tried hiding but once I figured out that he was searching for me I decided to walk out.
And that's when he hugged me as soon as he saw.
He took long strides, more like a run. And hugged me by my waist lifting me up from the ground.

My heart was beating erratically and a deep shade of red crept up my cheeks and nose.
That's when I realised that whatever came my way I would continue loving him like always.
Even if it meant that I would end up sad and broken in the end.

And that's it I didn't think of anything else and just continued talking to him and spending time with him.

To Be Continued...