"Nothingness" 1

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by spider129p

by spider129p

“Why do you swing so much?” My mother asked me, as she tilted her head a bit to the side as she looked at me confused,

I knew I couldn't tell her my plan and what I was going to do, i knew, my mother was the only one that cared for me…at…least I thought…I'm not sure anymore, I cant tell if someone Is using me or not by now,

Oh I just really like to swing, I like how pretty it looks, and the wind in my face… why do you ask mum?

“Just wondering because I looked outside and I saw you swing and I seen that you was out there for at least a couple of hours…”

Yeah, you don't have to worry about me.

“I now I just care about you” your mother than smiled at you,

Your heart shaderd,

You then thought to yourself, “No, she is probably lying to me,I mean that is what they said to me to, but look at what they did to me and how we are now,” “shit- I cant tell!”
You hesitated before you answered

I care about you to mum,but I'm getting a little tired

“Ok Sweetie, you can go ahead and go to sleep, I'm going to the store in a bit but I will be back, just lock the door and make sure no one comes i-”

You cut you mother off as she was speaking

I know mum, you dont have to worry

“I know, I know,”

You then smiled at her, before walking into you room and closing the door behind you,you layed down in your bed and waited till you heard your mother shout that she is leaving and the door shut.
You sat in silence. Before getting up out of bed and walked into the kitchen and searched through the cabinets to find what you looking for,

I found it….

You healed the bottle of meds in your hand, and read the bottle “Happy pills”, you grabed another one that said, “Sleeping pills”
All you could see on the back of the bottles was, “CAUTION” “WARNING” “READ ALL LABELS”
You didn't care though you ran over to the window and wrote to your mother “See you in the next life,I love you, but I have to do this, 8:23” you whent out the door to leave the house, but before you hoped on your bike with your things you turned to the house and smiled.
You hoped on your bike and speeded by, heading to the school where you would take action.
You got to the school and go off you book and plopped the meds in your mouth in your stomach and started heading up the stairs to the roof top, by then the meds have kicked in, you walked over to the gate that was blocking you from falling over, you took your shoes off, climbed up the gate and sat on the very top.
You sighed to yourself before pushing yourself off and before you knew it….you was falling,heading to the ground,
You saw the world gose by so fast….”am….I even….real?....” you ask yourself as you continue falling.

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Mom💗🌸🍡:
Where are you!?

Mom💗🌸🍡:
What do you mean you have to do this!?

Mom💗🌸🍡:
Answer me!

Mom💗🌸🍡:
Dont do anything mommy is going to help you!?

Mom💗🌸🍡:
PLEASE!

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you hit the ground.
It's over.
I'm free.
Im not.
I thought I would be.
I was wrong.
How could I ever be this stupid!

You layed on the ground, cars stopping and running over to you to see what happed and who you was.
Blood stared to form around you as your pupils whent down and you eyes started to close.
Your eyes started to form tears in them,
You was to weak to do anything to stop it,
You tried to move you head to the side to look one the other sides of you, you couldn't do it all that much because of your body declining and of how weak you was.
You felt you mothers hands cressing your cheek as she huddled over you and cried as the grip tightened on your shirt as she clinched her hands in sadness,anger,and disappointment in herself for not being able to help and not realizing that you was hurting deep inside…. she thought to herself
“Was I not good enough!”
“My own daughter and I didn't realize this was going to happen!”
"I'm so stupid!"
"Why........"

You could feel you mother shaking you as the blood and everything around you went blurry.
The blood,the people,the flashing red and blue lights, your own mother who was still clinched on you, crying.

Mom....

You said in a cracky,shakey,weak voice. You say as your vision goes blank.

Mom....where are you
Mom!

Your eyes get watery with is making everything blurry a bit, you quickly wipe your eyes with your hands and look around and all you see is nothing its just... a black,white,and gray room....no one in it,nothing in it. Only you standing in a void of nothingness.

-588 words-

OK! that is the end of this one there will be another one but it wont be related to this one. I'm sorry if anything is spelled wrong or my grammar is bad, I may make a new one tomorrow but maybe not,because I have school and and then I have to play for a football game for band.
I hope you guys liked this story,
Have a good night/day!