He's not visiting me In bed every few minutes like he usually does. I mean I understand it's a new potential partner. Someone you want to get to know, i understand that clearly and that doesn't bother me, What bothers me is how quick he changes, how out stability crumbles like pebbles, slowly but a surly enough to make an affect as to time day it will fall.
I just wish he could stick to the normal for us and then add in the normal for the potential partner rather get caught up the lust, the new girl the new mind and body.
Yes I have the typical thoughts of what if she's more interesting then me , prettier , smarter and more comfortable as well as confident in themselves. What if she's all the things I'm not and he gets addicted to the taste of "new" to the taste of different. Would I be expecting to change to match the partner ? Become a new more interesting
I'll end with a summary for my future self to process all this chaotic emotions of what triggered me.
he made plans on Sunday though
we already had pumpkin plans. He did ask me however, and I said yes because I don't want to take that excitement away.
Or is it because I don't want to fight to be noticed anymore or have to keep reminding preople I'm here.. I'm my own person but Will that ever be enough ?
