secrets. (sakuryo)

Prologue

Ever since I started school I always knew I was different.

Everyday before school, I would always be crying, complaining about how much I didn't want to go. Whenever I was at school, it felt like I didn't belong there.

The older I grew, the more I felt it. My friends would always talk about a girl they thought was pretty. I mean its not that the girls arent pretty, just more so I have never liked a girl like that ever..

I used to think I was asexual or whatever its called until my 1st year of high school. This new student who had moved from Tokyo to Kyoto came into my class.

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The moment we made eye contact I felt my face heat up. My heart started beating faster, whats wrong with me? Maybe its just how good looking he is.. actually wait that doesnt make it any better. It might just be a friend crush!!

The teacher told him to sit behind me as it was the only seat left open. The moment he sat down, it felt like I shouldn't move. My muscles tensed up and it probably looked like I was twitching but I doubt that. I hope when I felt my face heat up, my face didn't turn red.. god that would be so embarrassing if he saw that. From his pov it must be so weird making eye contact with a new classmate and suddenly his face turns red--

"Ryo this is the last time, please read the next paragraph to the class."

Oh shit. I wasn't paying attention.

"Uhm..sorry what page is it again?" i asked

"We are on page 71, pay attention Ryo. I should never have to ask you this." The teacher stated

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"Alright class is over, see you guys tomorrow! also remember your homework, don't get too excited about it!" chortled the teacher as us students are packing up finally looking lively ready to leave this place.

"Heyy Ryo! Wanna go to that one bakery we went last time and finish our homework with the others?!" chirped my one of my friends

"Yeah sure!" I say back enthusiastically still packing up.

"Okay we're gonna wait by the school gates meet us there when youre done packing" says another friend

"Yeah youre always so slow!"
"Last one there besides Ryo does my homework for me!!"
A different boy uttered as they all run as fast as they can to avoid the punishment.

As I'm about to leave the classroom the new kid taps on my shoulder.

"Hey you dropped this." The new boy says holding out a keyring that somehow fell off my bag.

I take my keyring back "Oh.. thanks" putting it back on my bag and smiling at him for telling me

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Well this is awkward. Why do I always have to be so awkward help me.

"So uhhh whats your name?" I finally muster the courage to talk to him

"In Izuru Takahashi"

"Oh awesome sauce! Im Ryo Hirose! wanna join my friends and i at a cafe to study?"

"Can I?"
"Yeah thats why im asking" I lightly chuckle at the hesitance he gives off before nodding

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Little did I know that talking to him would be my worst mistake ever. If I could go back in time, Id want to go to this very day and pretend like this kid never existed.

Why did he have to be so perfect? Why couldnt he have been a girl? Or why couldnt I have been a girl..? Would things have worked out if that were the case?