I got home excited and joyful for the holidays. I was looking forward to the time i would be spending on my youtube channel, going out and meeting new people. It turned out that i was completly wrong.
As soon as i got home i bought myself an ice cream with blue syrup scattered across it (my favourite colour is blue). I sat in the kitchen enjoying the treat i rewarded myself as a starter of new changes and new experiences this summer. As i ate the ice cream i thought of what i could do because i only had 5weeks to myself and the other 2 weels im abroad.
My sister barged in and shoutesd at me for no reason. I felt lost and so confused because she had been doing this for the 2months and it almost made me think that she hated me. I came to a conclusion that she did in the end and i think it turned out to be more than hate.
Later that evening, i ate my dimner and began to watch a movie. I was rudley disturrped by my sister and it was getting really good. She shouted more and more and more. The more she shouted the less self confidence she gave me. I felt as if i had to change my whole apperance and personalitie just for her to like me.
I finally had the guts to fight back and tell her to shut up and yet i get in trouble. This made my insecuritie levels drop down again and i felt low. I felt as if know one payed attention towards me and know one new i existed. I decided to sit in my room and cry. All i thought of was for Tré to back me uop but he was no longer there.
