My Escape

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A few weeks later things had been going great with the guys and honestly the bullying has seriouy cut down. I spend loads of my time with the guys and tonight we all stayed in Ashtons not that my dad cares and his parents are away for the week. I woke up and looked at the time, 7:04am when did we all fall asleep?

Food.

I had eaten alot and was still starved so I picked up the phone and dialed Dominoes number.

*beep*

*boop*

*beep*

*beep*

*boop*
The phone rang about four times before a rather tired employee answered.

"Hello and thankyou for calling Domineos may I take your order?"

"Yea hi are you doing deliveries?"

"Of course 7 days a week until 8am" he said rather unthusiastically.

"Great okay I'll have a 26 inch meat eaters pizza with wedges and garlic mayo please?"

"Ah hum and for drinks?"

"Just a 2 litre bottle of Fanta please"

"Uh huh and what's the adress?"

"29 Louisacre Lane"

"That'll be a total of $26.58 and it should be there in 10-15 minutes"

"Yea that's grand thankyou"

"No bother, have a nice day! Bye"

I hung up the phone. I looked down at the guys sprawled out on the mattresses on the floor. I walked down stairs and went into Ashs kitchen. 10 minutes later I heard a rap at the door I skipped to open the door.

"$26.58 please" a guy in a shrunken uniform greeted me. He stared back at his vespa while waiting for me to get the cash. I gave him $30 thanked him and closed the door. I walked quietly upstairs and turned on the bedroom light. I heard a few moans so I sat on the floor with the pizza taking a bite.

I heard muffled "pizza?" Coming from every corner of the room. Luke was the first to look up. He smiled and walked straight toward me sitting beside me and having a slice of pizza. Michael copied his actions followed by Ash and Callum at near enough the same time.

"What time is it?" Luke asked with a mouthful of pizza.

"About 7:30 I think" I said looking rather interested in my pizza.

"You just randomly bout pizza at 7am?" Michael asked looking amused. I nodded.
"Taylor you are the fucking best!" I laughed and drank some fanta.

"How about we go for coffee? I mean it's Saturday we have nothing to do!" Ash asked. Everyone agreed to go after the pizza.

I finished first and shouted up to the guys that I was going to the shop and I'd be back in a few.

I put my earphones in and started walking to the shop to buy some smokes. After John sold me my smokes and a lighter I headed back to Ashtons. Halfway there I lit up. Taking a few draws I saw Callum, Ashton and Michael sitting outside on the front door step I casually waved to them and took another drag.

"Whoa whoa whoa Taylor smoking is bad for you" Michael smiled shaking his finger at me.

"No shit Sherlock" I said smiling at him. "Its a filthy habit and I wish to never partake in it" I said, with the sarcasm practically dripping from my voice.

"What's a filthy habit?" I tired looking Luke emerged from his house. I shrugged my shoulders and took a puff. He smiled at me.

"I see you have discovered what I deal with every time I light up?" He said gesturing to Michael. I nodded laughing while offering him one. He accepted and we walked to the coffee shop laughing at how angry this made Michael.

"So Michael why are you all anti smoking?" I asked when we were seated inside the shop.

"Its just disgusting and Lukey here has been doing it in secret since he was 15" Michael teased elbowing Luke.
"Its literally cancer on a stick, they're... Cancer Sticks" he said triumphantly.

"Yea well they didn't kill my mom so that's where you're wrong" I said just loud enough for them to hear. They we're quickly quiet.

"Taylor I'm so-"

"Ready to order?" Michael was cut off by the waitress. I nodded and we gave our orders.

"Sit in or Take Away?"

"Take away" I said just wanting to get out of there. I continued the conversation like nothing had happened. But I was still getting the look from Luke, you know that look that gives of the "we are so not done talking about this" look. And I was dreading what I would end up spilling to him. I played with the sleeves on my hoodie a bit while they argued over what we should do today.

The girl came and set our coffees down in front of us, we paid her and she walked away. We lifted our coffees and headed to the park.

The caffeine had mad Ash, Mikey and Calum hyper so they ran to the swings, leaving me and Luke walking slowly behind them.

"Sorry about your Mom" he said genuinely sympathetic. I smiled.

"Its okay"

We neared a bin and we both put our coffee cups in. Luke stopped me suddenly and put his hands on my shoulders.

"Taylor you need to talk to me!" He said just below a shout.
"I don't fucking want you to bottle this shit up, it's not healthy"

"Luke you see what I go through in school to know why I bottle shit up!"

"Listen Tay everyone's broken in some way you just have to let us in!"

"Well are you broken in the way that your Mom died on your 15th birthday, you get bullied in school for breaking up with someone, your dad's an alcoholic who abuses you and blames you for your Mom dying? Are you?!" I said shouting and getting the attention of dog walkers passing by.

Luke was speechless. "Yea that's how I thought you'd react" I said speed walking to my favourite part of this park. The bridge that over looks a big stream. I sat down with my legs dangling over the edge.

"I'm so sorry Taylor" Luke said as he walked toward me. I was rubbing my fingers up and down my forearms just feeling the marks under my sleeve. He sat beside me just looking into the water.
"You never told me I had no idea" I nodded my head I could feel a lump forming in my throat. I saw him looking at me playing with my sleeve out of the corner of my eye.

"I never intended to tell or show yous any of this" I rolled up my sleeves and held my arms into me. Luke gently moved my arms so he could look at my forearms.

"Why?" Was all he could manage.

"Well my mom had just died and I didn't know how to cope, Jake had made my life shit, my dad blamed me for so much and I couldn't deal with it''

"I took their advice to "go kill myself" and I tried but I freaked out and I couldn't go on. Now almost every night, when I think and think and over think I end up coming to this, but once I start I can't stop it's an addiction, I was doing okay for a while then it went to shit."

I swung my legs beneath the bridge using them as an excuse not to look at him. "It got better when I met you and the guys yous are my first real friends since in a long time and although I've only known you lot for a small amount of time yous mean everything and I'm trying to get better but it's hard. Especially with going home to my dad every night. It was never bad with him it just got increasingly worse as he drank."

Luke didn't interrupt he just listened he didn't make any facial expressions he just listened. Once I unloaded I could feel the tears in my eyes that I didn't want to fall but eventually they did. Like automatically hugged me and tried to console me.

"Its okay Taylor I've got you, you font have to feel like that anymore, I'm never letting you go"

∞ kinda a serious chapter but I just needed to get the past sorted I promise it'll pick up now ∞