Love & War

Chapter 8.

             "Simone why do you have me coming to get you at six in the morning?" Dee yawned as I slid in the passenger seat. "Just drive! I'll tell you when we get home." I softly closed the door and put my seat belt on. "Okay rudeness." She quickly pulled off. "Bitch you gotta be so loud!?" I snapped my neck in her direction. "Bitch you told me to just drive the fuck!" She snapped. "Let me turn on my gospel before I do something to this girl." She mumbled.

            The whole ride home I just kept thinking about me and Saint. I had to keep squeezing my thighs shut as memories of last night and this morning flooded my brain. "Okay now please tell me what happened. He didn't try anything did he?" Dee asked as she closed and locked the front door. She stared at me looking very concerned. "Let's go to your room." I started heading that way since it's closer. "We can't, Jayce in there." She stopped me.

             "Bitch who?" I looked at her confused as hell. "Saint lil cousin." "Bitch you left him in our house all alone!?" I got a little loud. "Bitch you called me at five something in the morning telling me to come get you! I jumped right up and got my bitch ass in that car, you know I don't play about you! And I went through his pants and found his wallet. I took a picture of his ID and his bank cards just in case any of our shit went missing." "Delilah." I cackled.

            "Fuck it let's just go to my room." We walked to my room and I closed the door behind us. "Before I get started, not you letting him spend the nighttttt!" I laughed as we both climbed in my bed. "Girl it wasn't even supposed to end like that! Shiddd, we ended up putting each other to sleep! Honey ain't no cap in his rap, lil baby got skills!" She started fanning herself. "Oh bitch you need help." I cackled.

            "Enough about me! What happened at Saint house?" "Lala I fucked up, I did something real bad." "What happend?" Her face dropped. "I had sex with Saint." "Was it bad?" "No." I shook my head. "And you secretly always wanted to right?" "Yes." "He ain't take advantage of you or nothing right?" "Fuck no!" "Okay then I don't see the problem. I know that's right best frienddddd!" "Nooo that ain't right!" I stopped her from cheering. "Please elaborate, cause I'm confused." She scratched her head.

              "Don't get me wrong, it was AMAZING! Like it was everything I dreamed of and then some. But for one that's Simon's best friend, I have a boyfriend and Saint and we grew up together! This could complicate and mess up our whole relationship." I sighed. "Oh my god I cheated on Jabari, what the fuck! I gotta tell him! I have to tell him right!?" I started freaking out and panicking. "Girl no what the hell!" She mugged me.

"For one I thought you said y'all were broken up, for two what he don't know won't hurt him and lastly, when he cheated he ain't tell you! You found out on yo own AND THEN he confessed. Fuck him!" She snapped. "Oh my god I feel so guilty." I started crying. "I've never cheated before, I feel like shit!" "Hey no no no." She grabbed my hands. "Don't beat yourself up okay? Yes you cheated but you made a mistake." "I feel s-so bad." I sobbed. "I know baby and it's okay." She pulled me into her and hugged me.

             I hugged her back, sobbing into her chest. There was a knock at the front door. Both of us pulled apart and just stared at each other. "Who the fuck is that?" Lala whispered. "I don't know." I whispered back. The person knocked again. "Oh my gosh, what if it's Saint?" "I'll get it." Dee got up. "If it's him, tell him I'm not here." "You know I got you." She got up and walked out the room. I dried my eyes and sat still so I could hear. "What you doing here?"
I heard Lala say as the door opened.

"Where is Simone? I been trying to call and text her but I'm blocked." My heart dropped. "Jabari you fucking ghosted her, leave!" Delilah snapped. I got up and walked out my room. "Jabari what are you doing here?" I sniffled. "I been tryna reach you for days." "You know where I live." I folded my arms. "Baby listen." He tried to step inside but Dee was still blocking the door. She looked back at me. I nodded and she stepped to the side, allowing him to walk in.

         "I was outta town." He said once he was standing in front of me. "And you couldn't call or text me back?" I snapped. "A close family member had died. I went up there with my family, a lot was going on baby I'm sorry. When I tried calling and texting you back I seen you blocked me so after the funeral I booked the earliest flight so I can talk to you." He explained. I started feeling guilty all over again.

              "I'm so sorry." I started crying. "Huh?" He started looking confused. "Baby what's wrong?" He pulled me into a hug. "I-." I looked up at him, ready to just rip the bandage off and snitch on myself. "Man why the fuck it's so much talking going on? The sun ain't even up yet." Jayce came out of Lala's room scratching his head and yawning. "Nothing, come on. Let's go lay down." Dee grabbed his hand and started walking back towards her room.

            "She had a really long day and night, you should let her get some rest and just come talk to her later." Lala turned around and said before she fully disappeared down the hallway. "You good?" He looked down at me. "Yeah I just need to rest." I said just above a whisper. "Alright, I'll be back. Text me when you get up, I love you." He hugged me and gave me a quick kiss on my forehead.

             "I love you too baby." I walked him to the door and held it open for him. I watched him get in his car and then I closed and locked the door back. I walked to my room and picked up my phone. I had three missed calls and six text messages from Saint. He was asking where I was and if I was okay. FUCK! Tears flowed down my face as I blocked his number. I didn't want to but I don't know what else to do.