𝕽𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊 (bxb)

CHAPTER 35

Nick's POV

When he chuckled that's where I relived a bit he was slowly going back to normal . I joined our forehead together and kiss him deeply it was slow and full of emotions that were yet to address . "Your mom was so scared and heartbroken she must be here any moment now ." " how did she know that I gain senses back ?" Shashank asked .  " I texted her when I was allowed to enter!" . "Does she know .... " he paused inbetween his sentence and looked straight into my eyes . He gulped and completed his sentence " about my cancer ?" .  "Yes She knows so does I she was there when doctor called me to have a talk " . He called his eyes shut and tear fell down his eyes. " So how does she react and you " . " She was sobbing hard and I had to calm her down and my whole world turned upside down " . " Don't worry I'm not gonna die anytime soon and if I did I'll hunt you down as a ghost if you ever mary anyone " his giggled filled the room " Shas don't say anything like this again " my voice broke a little . The nurse entered the room with his mom beside . "Miss Murray was here to see you sir " . We both nodded at the  nurse and she exit the room .

Shashank POV

         The moment mom entered every single muscle of body felt like it broke down I don't know the brave character I kept was being broken .  I looked at her face and then at her fingers as they were trembling. "Maa , come here" I said patting the empty space on my bed . " Shas Baby are you okay how are you feeling and how this happened baby ?" . The moment she sit she bombard me with all this questions . " It was an accident Ma nothing serious , as even the doctor said I can get discharge in few days. Right Nick?" I looked at him as he'll have my back and he did . " Yes the doctor did say that " . " I ...I know about the cancer how did when did it happen and why didn't you tell me us I'm your best friend Shas and you didn't  even once think that you can tell me this big thing " . " Sorry Ma and Nick even I get to know this few weeks earlier and I was finding the right time to tell you guys but it felt wrong you us were so happy in the moment that I didn't want to spoil your life and become a burden on your happiness ."

      "And who tf you think you are burden to us sorry for my harsh language but Shas I carried you for nine months and then for years I struggled with my body and my mind because of the changes that occur in my life during and after pregnancy but never once I felt that giving birth to you was a wrong choice and I'll never think like that ever . You were the biggest blessing of my life I can't thank enough to god for the honour of being your mother . You know after your birth your dad and I was separated for a while as I was at my mom's house and the conditions were more worse I went into postpartum depression and everyday I thought about ending my life but I looked at you and realise what a blessings I have with me you helped me through it without realising. You helped me then and all those time when your dad or brother couldn't but you stand firm on your ground to be with me and never backed out for me . I am so grateful and proud how little you were yet so brave never think of you as burden never honey " she broke down in my arms and so did I .

     "I'm sorry Ma I'll never think like that again and I promise that I'll tell you every single thing that happens also I'm sorry Nick I was so messed up the idea of Cancer taking up life scared the shit out of me and then knowing it was not the first stage scared me even more I didn't have the guts to tell you guys there was a time where I didn't want to live but now that have I have been happy truly Cancer came as the door to death maybe and I don't want to die I want to live for you for Nick I love you guys so much I can't imagine a life without you " I sobbed so hard Nick came running and hugged me tightly. " what made you think it's easier for us to live without you and we all together will fight against the cancer and show that how strong you are and our love is " Nick said . We all hugged each other and nothing in this moment felt more concerning than anything this is where I know what I love is and how beautiful it is