Layag aking Liyag

Chapter 1- The day after the big night

Omyghad! As in O.M.G! I can't believe na gigising ako na parang hindi ako ang big winner kagabi.

At ang hindi ko makakalimutan sa gabing iyon bukod sa pagkapanalo ko ay ang binulong sakin ni jarren nung niyakap nya ako para i-congrats.

“Congrats my fiance, I'm very proud of you, I always am.” He said in his usual low and husky voice. Kyaaah! sarap!

Iwinaksi ko muna ang paulit ulit na flashback na yun, baka mamaya sa interview ko mapagkamalan nilang in love ang eabab na itu, well, totoo naman but wala dapat makakaalam, me and si self lang, period.

Kagabi, I thanked God and everyone who supported me and also I just want to thank jarren because I enjoyed being in the pbb house, one of the reason ko kaya siya, este pinaka reason pala.

But I don't want to make it obvious na may crushavolavol ako sa ekalal na iyon, duh! Malamang sa malamang, pagkukumpulan kami ng tuksuhan kapag inuna kong mag thank you sa fiance ko kaya para walang makahalata, I first thanked Jm who is my best friend inside the house, syempre, pag best friend walang malisya and he's like a brother to me, him and of course the one he really like, Jasmin Helen.

After him, I thanked jarren as I searched for him in the crowd behind me. And also, dongpat na rin.

We are still here inside the pbb house,  hindi pa kami umuuwe sa kaniya kaniya naming bahay because magkakaroon pa ng reunion mamayang gabi and when we say reunion? Malamang nandun si crushicakes na baluktot magtagalog a.k.a my little jarren slush my fiance.

‘Ang harot ng eabab na dis!’

Today, we are allowed to use our  cellphones na.

‘ Kuya may vape ba dyan? pede pahipak?’

Pag open ko pa lang ng aking cellphone, sandamakmak na notifications ang natanggap ko galing sa mga taong sumusuporta sakin.

‘ Ay si bakla, online sikat!’

Hindi ko na iisa-isahin mga chinat ko, basta after ng mga yun, I opened my TikTok account and ateh ko, ano itu? Andaming edits, pak! Si eagirl ang daming kaloveteam! Isa na dito ang Jmfyang, malamang! kita ko na to kagabi e, like si bff kaloveteam ni bakla!

Nagscroll pa ako and then lumabas sa fyp ko ang isang edit, like what?!

MAY FANDOM DIN KAMI NG LITTLE JARREN KO?! KYAAAAH!

‘Truelavolavol?!’

Yung edit na yun is about sa mga green flags na nagawa ni jarren towards me, ganda mo ea!

This is what I'm saying, whenever jarren is doing something towards me its seems normal to him but grabe yung impact sakin, like ateh, I love physical touch but act of service is top tier.

‘I hope that something for me means something for him too’

As I immersed myself in that edit, I can't help but to repost it, gosh! mahahalata ba ko neto?

Pero hayaan na! Kunwari nilalayag lang pero with personal feelings na kasama, harot!

Basta, madami pa and hindi ko mapigilan ang aking nga daliring ipagrerepost yan mga bading! Go lang, kinikilig ang eabab e.

“Ms. Fyang, kailagan na natin magready for the reunion mamayang gabi.” Tawag saakin ng isang make up artist. I just smiled and nodded as I follow her inside the dressing room.

Can't wait to see him later. Well, he's here din naman sa house, I think I'll just ask him to have a tiktok vid with me. Huhuhu, so nervous but I will be my usual self, walang magpapahalata self, not now—but when? For how long ko kaya maiitago itong nararamdaman ko sa little jarren ko?