I Surrender

I'm sorry it's come to this, but I just can't handle it anymore. I've handled it long enough, now its all bottled up and pouring out all at once. I don't know what to do this time, this time it's different.
I only know one way to handle it,
and that's suicide.

I'm sick of it all, being called a slut, bitch, whore, every name in the book. I'm always the one who gets bullied, I'm sick of it.
I surrender myself to all who dislike me, my mom, dad, sister, schoolmates, and hometown, I surrender.

I will get the rope, knife, pill bottle, whatever I can get, I choose the rope. I went to school early that day to commite suicide there and when the bell goes off; I go off.
The reason I am to hang myself at school is because so everyone will see how much pain I would've been in, and would then understand why I was who I was.
And then, I'll be free.

The bell has gone, and so did she.
The students surrounded the dead, pail, hanging body, without saying a word the children covered their mouth and stared at the body.

The principle told the children to go to the gymnasium while the situation is being figured out. He then called the police.
The police arrived and took down the body and rope, then went to the young lady's house to tell her family the news.

The police man told Mr & Mrs Thomson and they broke down in tearse. They couldn't think of any reason why she would be depressed enough to give up her life.

They then went into her room to look for anything out of the ordinary. They found nothing except for one thing, a suicide note.
Her parents read it, and dropped to their knees crying.  The policemen read it and placed it at the foot of the bed without saying a word. The policemen was unable to do anything else so hey left the house.

Her parents told her sister and her sister cried and locked herself in her room. They then had no choice but to move on.

Tracie taking her life effected everyone because she wasn't as disliked as she thought.
She made a difference in peoples lives, made them happy, put a smile on peoples faces, everyone liked her except for one person.

Herself.

Taking her life devastated everyone.
The boy in the hall who didn't smile back at you, yeah he cuts every night cause he thought a smile would've changed the fact that you went suicide.
Or your teacher, she quit her job cause she thought she was too hard on you, but she was hard on you cause she knew you were the only one going somewhere in life.
The kid that called you a bitch, she goes to therapy every week because she thought calling you a bitch was the reason you went suicide.

Your little sister is suffering from depression because she thought that bugging you everyday got on your last nerve.
And then there's your parents;
They haven't left the house for a month cause they can't get over the fact that there little girl isn't there anymore. They're afraid that if they leave the house other people will criticize them for your mistake.

All of that because you surrenerd.
One person taking there life away effects more then you would imagen, so if you know someone who is suffering from depression, tell someone before they surrender.