Trapped (Alastor x reader) (Slow Updates)

42- Enough is En0ugh

Happy Halloween everyone

A friendly reminder to everyone that the characters in this are based from the pilot episode and not the season version, I might try to add some things from the season later on but for now I'm sticking with the pilot stuff

And yes, Vaggie is staying human, sorry about that

TRIGGER WARNINGS! Depression, self-hate/loathing, and suicidal thoughts

Also, it is going to 'skip' ahead on some things but I do promise everything will be explained in the next chapter

(Past)

"Do you think anything can justify accidental murder? No matter the circumstances?"

Angel paused from the the drink he was about to have "Not really, murder is murder no matter how you look at it, why?"

"Just thinking of all the people who have unintentionally killed someone and have to suffer for it, what about you Charlie?"

"If it is accidental and they feel guilty about it, then they deserve a chance to redeem themselves, they've already made the first step by acknowledging it and knowing that it's bad"

You regret asking her that. How cliché.

I can't believe I was that deluded when I was younger

(Present)

Always the coward. Always running from your problems instead of facing them head-on. Or were you really just trying to let out the rage that has been bubbling inside of you for months that you were about to kill someone? Again.

It didn't matter, you were currently running through the woods like an animal in the hope that you could calm down and think more rationally. But you knew that wouldn't happen for a while. If at all.

You were so tense and pent up that it might take hours or even a whole day before you could calm down enough to act like a proper human being.

Human... were you even human anymore? Now after being told that you had a parasite living inside of you? Doesn't matter. None of it does.

So you ran, like a dog going on a walk. You ran. You ran. Over and over again until your limbs started to ache and the cold air was now biting against your exposed skin to the point of going numb.

Always running, never stopping.

Make it stop. Make it stop. M4K3 1T ST0P!

Without realising it, you let out a wail of frustration that didn't sound human. You didn't care to pay attention to it. Instead, you were busy shaking your head as if it would stop the noises as well as voices inside your head. As if that would solve everything going on in your miserable existence.

Me, me, me. Are you sure you aren't selfish? You seem to be acting like one right now, I dare say you're as egotistical as I am the voice cackled maniacally.

You threw yourself against a tree as if that would solve all your problems.

Ouch, that had to hurt. Do it again

Shut up. Shut up

Ooh, maybe you could break your hand by punching the tree, that's a classic too, or maybe a wall, ooh, maybe bashing your head so hard with a mallet that it caves in

Shut up. Shut up. SHUT TH3 FUCK UUUUUP

You see flashes of red with a familiar, sickly yellow smile.