Giovedì 31 ottobre 0:14.
I cried pretty hard, I wish I had the straight to just end it all already, Ive started sh about a week ago, since then I've noticed that when I got to the salon to get the hair of my legs off I realised that that was my way of self harming until I decide to use the blade, I've realised just how much I loved genshin and how much I really needed a person to talk to, I don't know who's reading this, I hate my school, I hate my mom or dad, I hate my cousins and brother for making me anxious for the tiniest things I've ever done, I hate myself my body my mind and everything else, I weight around 78 kilos, I don't know what to do, I wish I never met ghost or started making dragon puppets, I just wish I never grew up and I wish that I didn't spend half of my life being a people's pleaser, there's so much more but right now this is all I can think of, I'm sorry Ashton, I'm sorry to the person I met in genshin and became friends with them, I'm sorry to you two the only ones who for now didn't try to betray me at least that's what I know of you, have a good life.
Giovedì 31 ottobre 2024 13:36
I tried cutting again, one on my hip and one on my stomach, I'm weak I couldn't make it so I did a little one on my shoulder.
[30/10, 21:06] Vik-soulkiller: I can't
[30/10, 23:46] Vik-soulkiller: Fuck
[30/10, 23:46] Vik-soulkiller: I wish I never stopped playing that fucking game
[30/10, 23:46] Vik-soulkiller: I wish I never decided this school
[30/10, 23:46] Vik-soulkiller: I wish I never met ghost
[30/10, 23:46] Vik-soulkiller: I wish I never knew how to make dragon puppets
[30/10, 23:47] Vik-soulkiller: I wish I never realised how heavy things in the past were, that I never noticed just how bad I am
[30/10, 23:47] Vik-soulkiller: That I never noticed the bad ways I used to cope with myself
[30/10, 23:48] Vik-soulkiller: At least I didn't know this pain at least I didn't know ways to end it
This was yesterday, I sent it to Ashton.
Still 31, it's 14:02 my brother Is in my place cutting vegetables I hate them, they make me feel like throwing up.
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