lionfish | oneshots

⇛is it too much to ask for?

I don't think this counts as angst but it's definitely not fluff—
(I put my heart and soul into this, i hope you enjoy it :3)

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What is love?

Freminet had always wondered, was he even able to love? He had been surrounded by couples almost every day, and watching them with their partners, it sometimes got him thinking:

Was anyone going to love him?

But how could anybody even think about loving someone like him? He's just a spare part, lying around.

He had been surrounded by romaritime flowers and tigalda, sea otters to keep him company. Wasn't that pathetic?

How could he even find someone when the only thing he does is run away from people?

But he liked it like this. Being at the bottom of the ocean, having the sea creatures company. Still, he couldn't help but feel his heart ache as he held onto his shirt, gripping it tightly where his heart was.

Wouldn't it be nice to have a special somebody to share this space with? To hold hands and talk about their day. Maybe hug too.

A sea otter that held a seashell had interupted the blondes overthinking, swimming in circles around him.

Freminet offered the sea otter a weak smile.

"Hey there.." he spoke, his soft and quiet voice breaking the silence.

The otter tilted it's head to the side, showing concern on it's face.

"Ah no, im okay.. Don't worry." Freminet felt guilty about how he got an animal worrying about him.

"Just.. Thinking." he muttered as he brought his knees to his chest, hugging them close.

For a moment, he couldn't help but struggle holding it in, his chest aching as he struggled to breathe properly.

'Father' didn't like it when children cried. That's a sign of weakness. He reminded himself, remembering the cold stare from The Knave. She was scary at times, but you learn to live with it.

"Maybe i am weak.. Maybe i am pathetic.." he let out a quiet sob, his tears mixing with the ocean. He hated himself for crying so much. Why was he like this?

But this was perfect. Nobody was there. Nobody to see him like this. Nobody to have to burden themselves with this.

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Was it selfish of him for feeling deep down that he wanted someone next to him? For wanting some reassurance, for wanting somebody to love him? The weak him, the pathetic him.

After all, he was just a lonely boy who wished for someone to hold him, someone to love him, someone to talk with him.

Freminet could feel his hands tremble as he stared at them. He had started feeling cold from how long he was in the water. But that didn't matter, nobody would care anyways.

Besides him sat Pers, listening to everything, feeling everything that Freminet felt, or that's just what Freminet told himself to feel better.

"Thank you Pers.. For being here.." Freminet smiled weakly at the mechanic penguin. The penguin stared into nothingness, sitting there next to him.

His eyes shut close as he rested his head against his knees. He was going to stay here a while longer, letting himself let everything out.

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Is it really too much to ask for?

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Anyways, i hope you liked this :)
(now that i read it, it is kinda all over the place so i apologize for that TwT)

Btw this is kinda gonna have a part two :3