" why..."

Arguement

I stand faced with conflict. "You tell me that I lost all my hope and got no future then now youre saying you love me? What the actual fuck is wrong with you to think its okay" for that i stand faced with anger and just a frustration.
"Darling  let me just have a minute to explain you are dragging it out of context and spoke to me when I wasn't in the greatest mood so of course i'm going to snap. I'm sorry I cannot love you like you properly want me to and you deserve someone better..."  
uh huh okay be my guest then because all im seriously hearing is excuses and excuses.

I walked out of the room because i was over him until i felt a tight and firm grip around my wrist pulling me back locking of eyes to a glare as if his self was lost from that argument,i could feel his breathing on me it wasn't a good sign as i felt uncomfortable i wanted to run mentally but physically i couldn't move. My mind was lost in thoughts. I didn't know what to do as he kept being physical to me and not in the pleasurable way, marks were left leaving a burning feeling to me.

It makes me want to hate him after all this "what happened to the sweet guy that i loved 6 years ago huh?" that thought was spoken out loud "oh that guy.?
That whole act of a guy oh yeah hes disappeared. Wow you seriously are gullible to think a guy would ever and i mean ever. Love a pathetic arse twink like you" my eyes became sensitive and tears streams traced down my face the feeling of heavy regret created in my chest it hurts.. He watched me and just laughed at me. He lost him mind and he was just a heartless soul who plays people to treat the with want they wanna hear and how the creations of how a relationship should be. As his final tease he just let go of me and threw me down to cause pain, I groaned in pain of a wave of force of the throw it was just filled of hatred and human decency. "Just end me then if you're over me.."I stand faced with conflict. "You tell me that I lost all my hope and got no future then now youre saying you love me? What the actual fuck is wrong with you to think its okay" for that i stand faced with anger and just a frustration.
"Darling  let me just have a minute to explain you are dragging it out of context and spoke to me when I wasn't in the greatest mood so of course i'm going to snap. I'm sorry I cannot love you like you properly want me to and you deserve someone better..."  
uh huh okay be my guest then because all im seriously hearing is excuses and excuses.

I walked out of the room because i was over him until i felt a tight and firm grip around my wrist pulling me back locking of eyes to a glare as if his self was lost from that argument,i could feel his breathing on me it wasn't a good sign as i felt uncomfortable i wanted to run mentally but physically i couldn't move. My mind was lost in thoughts. I didn't know what to do as he kept being physical to me and not in the pleasurable way, marks were left leaving a burning feeling to me.

It makes me want to hate him after all this "what happened to the sweet guy that i loved 6 years ago huh?" that thought was spoken out loud "oh that guy.?
That whole act of a guy oh yeah hes disappeared. Wow you seriously are gullible to think a guy would ever and i mean ever. Love a pathetic arse twink like you" my eyes became sensitive and tears streams traced down my face the feeling of heavy regret created in my chest it hurts.. He watched me and just laughed at me. He lost him mind and he was just a heartless soul who plays people to treat the with want they wanna hear and how the creations of how a relationship should be. As his final tease he just let go of me and threw me down to cause pain, I groaned in pain of a wave of force of the throw it was just filled of hatred and human decency. "Just end me then if you're over me.."me.." "aw is someone really that pointless and isnt wanting to beg for mercy? Then ill just brutally get it out of you i want you to suffer like you did to me during middle school."he stood over my dread and weak body whispering in my ear of "remember that guy who was really introvert,quiet and everyone would find weird and would just bully including you despising me and just a nasty popular girl you were i thought you were different at the time but no you were like the rest of them. Irritable" i was astonished was this really the same guy? I mean i was not the nicest in middle school but humans change " youre just a fucking wierdo and thats a joke" thoses are the words that came out of my mouth instead of 'im sorry'