21st October, 2000
dear love,
i'm here, but sometimes it feels like I'm not really part of your life.
like a shadow, i'm in your world. im always near, but never touching your reality.
i just want to bring more light into your days.
in my garden, you're my dahlia, tulips and daisies.
i love your perfect smile, your eyes so dark and deep i could fall right into them. it's impossible to ignore you.
but ... i don't understand. it feels like i'm the only one who needs you.
why do i miss you? i can't fall asleep. i hate the way that i am so attracted to you.
don't you think about me too?
i've seen how you look at her. she's cute, funny and charming, she's a natural beauty.
and then i thought, she's perfect for you.
it's why i've been trying to forget you, but it doesn't work.
i'm falling apart.
