Different but Better

𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥.

I force myself out of bed. Another day at fuckin hell.

I put on my school trousers, and shirt,not doing the top button,it's creased as well, oh well, I'm not arsed. I put on my jumper, it's not a school one but I don't care, it's plain black which is enough for me.

I walk downstairs, to see breakfast on the table, that never happened when mum was looking after me.

"Morning, kiddo!" Ella says, gesturing for me to come sit down, "Hey wait, where's ya tie Charlie, honestly!"

"I've lost it." I say shrugging, I've got crap memory n all that, okay?!

I eat some pancakes, the buttermilk ones from asda, with choccy chips, the rest of the food on the table either has strange texture or stinks, or is just yucky.

I go back upstairs and grab my headphones and my jacket, 2 of my biggest comforts, I've also got a bic 4 coloured pen in me pocket as well, perfect.

I realise it's 3 minutes after the time I'd usually leave, this panics me, I don't like being late, and I don't like being off routine, even in the slightest.

"ELLA IT'S 2 MINUTES LATER THAN USUAL, WHAT AM I GONNA DO!!! I sprint downstairs.

"Chill out Charl, you're fine, I'm taking you in my car anyway, you aren't gonna be late" She says rubbing circles on my back.

"But still, the routines messed up!" I say, looking up at her.

She places her hands on my shoulders "You're fine, let's get going, okay?"

After some deep breaths, I say "Can you quickly do my hair and laces?" I don't like asking for help on these things, cause any kid should be able to do them 2 things, especially 11 year olds, I've just never had the right coordination.

I get in the car and she drops me off, before walking through the gates I begin blasting music in my ears, only loud noise I can stand.

The beautiful tune of the girl in the dirty shirt begins playing, absolutely biblical

"Charlotte, headphones and jacket off!" Miss Leefield says a about 0.00001 seconds after I enter, I don't listen, obviously.

I go to first period, science, for fucks sake.

"Charlotte, why're you late?" Miss Derril says.

I reply quite straight forwardly "Erm I didn't want to fuckin come?"

She tells me to sit down, immediately my knee starts bloody bouncing, honestly! The bastard next to me is breathing loudly and the one behind me is rattling the shit inside his pencil case about,the teachers droning on, so I last about 15 minutes, before walking out.

"Charlotte Toone, where do you think you're going?!" She follows after me.

I turn around for a split second "AWAY FROM YOU DUH BITCH!" before running off, aha, the lazy bitch couldn't even be arsed to run after me.

I go to the pe office, where I know my favourite teacher should be this period.I have her for English and PE, so we're quite close.Sure enough she is in there.

"Charlie, Charlie, Charlie, Charlie!" She does that everytime I see her, not too sure why, I always give her a jokey death stare, "Ooh tough crowd, anyways, mate whats up?"

I slump down in a chair, "Miss Derril is what's up, and everyone in my class, everything were just too much, so I left." I shrug.

"Well I don't think leaving was the right thing, but this happens often, don't it?" Miss A,says.

I nod, "I just can't cope in lesson, it's always too loud, or the works to hard, or I can't focus or sit still."

"Yeah I've noticed that,it's break now anyway, wanna sit in here?"

I nod. Obviously. I hate break time anyway, the whole school crammed together, it's loud as fuck and you can barely walk about, who'd enjoy that!

I talk to her whilst chewing on my pen, once she takes that out me mouth, I move to chewing on me jumper sleeve instead, I don't know I've always gotta be chewing sommat.

She let's me sit with her for next period, computer science, I don't actually mind it, just a bit irritating when the teacher takes over everyones screen every 5 seconds, you get me?

I have to go to next period, English, cause I have her for it anyway!

(skip to lunch)

I enter the canteen with my one and only mate, Adelaide, ugh she's got a way cooler name than me.

We get in the queue and a start tapping my hands on the side of my legs and jumping, cause, ain't that what I always do,I can't stand still?!

I go to grab the same thing as EVERYDAY, cheese sandwich and a water, but, there's no cheese sandwiches, fucks sake!

"You alright bro?" Adelaide asks, noticing my anxiety, I don't know why these small things stress me, they just do I suppose.

I nod and sit down, still in a mood, I hate this, I have to sit in this crowded, loud canteen without my cheese sandwich, that's threw my day off once again.

Last period, Art, I've never been good at that, I don't even have enough coordination to hold a pencil properly, no joke.

I can hear everyones pens scraping against their pages,people slurping from there water bottles, sharpening pencils, a buzzing from the 50 million year old projector screen thing.

I tap on the table to try and calm myself, them pulling at my hair, and trying one of those absolute bollocks of breathing exercises, hint, NONE OF  THEM WORK.

But it's all that little bit too much, so I walk out, I force myself to not cry or lash out on sommat, I press it down instead, and walk around. Only 15 minutes till the end of school anyway.
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𝐑𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐈 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬.
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