I'm constantly thinking about you,
everyday.
One, two, three;
I tell myself, "Shut up" and "Get over them,"
everyday.
One, two, three;
I breathe in to change the topic of bouncing waves and signals in my head.
Everyday.
One, two, three;
I get a sudden urge now and then to talk to my friends and family about you.
"One, two, three."
I whisper to myself,
to find somewhere to cut in with an "I've been missing them again."
One, two, three.
That was a bad idea, I think to myself as I'm now getting a lecture about how "There are better people out there for you."
One, two, three.
My brain cells are sick of hearing and thinking about you.
Did you know I still think about you? Everyday?
No.
"One, two, three," I whisper counting on my fingers
"Hey, have you heard about how they are doing?"
NO.
ONE, TWO, THREE.
"No. I don't care either."
They usually walk away after that and I go back to counting on my fingers trying to distract from any thoughts about you.
Everyday.
One, two, three.
I count on my fingers to forget about the memories every day.
I constantly think of the same three words "One, two, three."
Every day. To distract me from thinking about the memories every day.
The memories I feel every day.
The memories I relive every day.
The memories I start to smile about and feel the euphoria from it all; then I realize it's gone.
Everyday.
The memories I struggle to breathe while I think about while I'm constantly thinking about you every day.
One, two, three.
I repeat it every day.
One, two, three.
I repeat every day to distract myself from y-
one,
two,
three.
