Never Will I Love You | Rosekook ff

Episode: 17

Jungkook POV:

The next day, Jimin drove me home. As soon as I reached home, I went to my room and went to take a shower. After that, I changed into a T-shirt matched with jeans, and walked downstairs where Eomma waited for me at the dining table. We had lunch together and after that, I immediately headed out to Rosé's place.

I got out of my car and rang the bell. No response came. I range again and then again. I kept ringing the doorbell over and over but no answer came. A lady was passing by and seeing me at the door, she called out.

???: Annyeong, who are you looking for?

Jungkook: Annyeong, I'm looking for Mr. Park.

???: Ohh...they left the house just yesterday. The house has been sold out.

I stared at the lady's direction, dumbstruck and frustrated for a while but thanked her before she walked away and got in my car and tried calling Rosé. Her phone was unreachable. I was so pissed at her. I tried calling Ahjussi. But his phone was also unreachable. I stopped the car and hit the steering wheel, exasperated.

Jungkook: Roseanne Park, how could you do this to me????

I opened my contacts list and skimmed through the names until I found the contact I was looking for.

Over the call...

Jungkook: Annyeong! I need a favour from you. Can you please find a person? I really need her info fast. I am sending her photo. Thanks a lot!

After hanging up and texting the number HER photo, I started my car and ended up driving to a restaurant I used to visit frequently with eomma when I was younger. I entered the restaurant; quiet and peaceful as always! I ordered a cup of coffee and looked around. The restaurant has a serene rooftop view with a picturesque natural scenery; just the right place for me to retrace my steps, take things a bit slow and think things through without worrying about the future even though I knew I had my hands full. I used to adore this place because it had a spacious kids area, perfect for my infant self to enjoy to my heart's content. Looking around, I don't think I ever expected myself to come back here as an adult desperately looking for a safe space.

With an attempt to preoccupy myself, I scrolled through my phone's gallery, feeling a bit nostalgic. I don't remember when was the last time I caught a scene of nostalgia. My lips stretched into a small smile as I reminisced how perfect my life had been back when I was still a teenager till I became the CEO of my family company. It was quite a ride that I enjoyed. I used to go clubbing a lot with my friends. There, I met Tzuyu. Tzuyu...the only girl my past self has always idolized as the only woman for me. After all, we had such a long 3 years of relationship. But slowly I changed and before I knew it, I was the CEO, a workaholic, a coffee addict who was stuck up between the office and the gym to work out my overworked body. That was the life I knew after becoming the CEO. However Tzuyu used to beg me to give her some time. Her words always made me believe that she really wanted me and thus I started managing my time better and showered her with more of my precious hours. But then, one day, eomma randomly came to my office to announce that I was to get married with a girl I had never even met in my entire life. I rejected the idea of marrying a stranger but I couldn't defy eomma as well! I tried telling Eomma about Tzuyu but she was not happy with my relationship nevertheless and asked me to break up. With no other choice left at hand, I tried threatening Rosé on our very first encounter. But we still ended up getting married. Thinking back, I bet she was also bound to the circumstances as much as me. At the end of the day, we both couldn't defy someone and had to end up together. However, my frustration with such turn of events led me to be oblivious of her state. My mind found it easy to rather to blame her for everything without showing a bit of my understanding. I never thought of giving her a chance. I never tried to see that she was trying for some scumbag like me. I do realize now that I had lost the sanity to logically evaluate my situation. My lack of composure of mind only left me feeling lovesick. I did not appreciate that I had to watch another woman at my home everyday while my heart clearly was fluttering somewhere else. But I guess Tzuyu might have been betraying me since the very beginning. She had cast a veil over me which prevented me from seeing the woman who was actually giving her all for me. I wish I had opened my eyes a bit faster to realize how much you cared. I wish I had given you a little more respect, Roseanna Park.