I'm about to open the door to get out of the car, but I quickly pull my hand back and sit down modestly, not knowing how to act. I look inside the store and see Arun holding the phone to her ear.
You could say I was shocked, since she suddenly blurted out something like that out of nowhere, and I wasn't prepared to hear something like that. She's the kind of person who always manages to surprise me, no matter the occasion.
And always... now too.
"Are you hurt because I'm getting married? Why does that hurt you?"
My heart beats faster, anxious to hear the answer from whoever is on the other end of the line. In fact, the way Arun introduced the subject already gives me a clue, but I still want to be sure. I don't want to risk being embarrassed because I think I misunderstood, like last time.
"..."
"I asked why you're hurt."
Beep!
Then the call was cut off. I saw Arun quickly hang up and put her phone on the table, as if she was scared. Seeing her behavior, I felt that I couldn't let this go and got out of the car immediately, heading straight to the store. However, the door was locked from the inside.
"Open the door and come talk to me now, Arun!"
I knocked on the door while shouting. The sweet-faced little girl, who was distracted, was startled by the commotion and ran to the door, with a surprised expression, as if she didn't recognize my face.
"The store is already closed."
"It's me, Intuorn."
"Khun Intuorn..."
As soon as she realized it was me, the little girl was startled before slowly unlocking the door and opening it to face us, without the glass separating us.
"Continue where you left off. Why are you hurt about me getting married?"
"I..."
"Stop hiding! Normally, you're great at talking, always commenting on this and that, but why now, when I need you to talk, you don't say anything? Tell me what you're feeling!"
"If I speak, would it change anything?"
The sweet-faced girl speaks with a shaky voice, hugging herself. I looked at her insecure posture, surprised, because the former secretary never acted like that. She was always assertive, confident in everything she did, she knew and calculated well before acting.
Maybe what she said before was something that slipped out without thinking, and that's why she hung up quickly.
"Yes, it can change. You just have to tell me."
"Can a wedding be canceled that easily?"
"For me, everything is easy, if you just tell me how you feel. That's all!"
It seems like getting her to talk will be too difficult, so I decide to press her.
"Do you hate me?"
"I don't hate you, Khun In."
"...."
"I get nervous every time I see you."
"Do you get nervous when you see me? After seven months of not seeing each other and finally seeing each other again?"
The sweet girl looks at me and slowly nods before answering.
"Yes, I still get nervous too."
"What kind of nervousness are we talking about? Because I get so nervous that it feels like my heart is going to explode."
