11/03/2024
I'm not entirely sure what I need to do at this point...
to get the life that I've envisioned for myself...I'm not even sure what they mean when they say:
"if it's meant to be, then it will be..."
Often times, I feel like I'm wrong, but
I want to be unconditionally happy...
To be loved, in spite of all of my flaws...
Is that even possible?I want to say that I love my life, the way that it is, but honestly I have to say I'm far from that dream.
I'm not sure that what I have is unconditional, but rather CONVENIENT!!!
(that is...if I'm to be honest with myself)I want, more than anything, to be who my mother was...to take care of mine, and not care of the opinions of others. I can't say that I know when and how my priorities got so messed up. Thoughts by the Thousand cloud my mind, but nothing seems to be clear. I can't even say I understand the reason why?
What has God envisioned for me? Because this simply can't be it...right? What lesson has God attempted to instill in my mind, that I have yet to learn?
I guess I'm waiting on a sign...anything...which will explain the thoughts and scenarios that always seem to overtake the space I have to remain content and at ease...I'm waiting.
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The Three Thirds of Me
PoetryA series of prologues followed by a sequence of free verse poetry regarding the life experiences of a single twenty-two year black female. Please feel free to provide any feedback or commentary regarding the content. I'm particularly new to the wr...