Just Stay

14. Going Down

"We have to endure this for a week. Can't we just try to work past the animosity?" 

"NO!" April and I both yell. 

I know Amelia is just trying to keep the peace and I can see that this is making her anxious. For some strange reason I want to protect her from this. I know I have been a total bitch and treated her like crap. Even when she has been nothing but kind. I promise to try to change that, I don't want to end up like the backstabbing ex-best friend in front of me. 

"You need to watch your back, Amelia. You don't want April to stab you in the back too. She like to dig the knife in deep."

"Please!" April rolls her eyes. "You act all high and mighty, but you are just like me." I am nothing like you. She smirks as if she knows what I'm thinking." You were nothing before we came in and rescued your pathetic ass. Then you had to take what was mine."

"You can fucking have the piece of shit! You two belong together." Turning around I grab my foster sister's hand. "Come on, Amy let's get out of here it reeks of trash in here." Bumping into April's shoulder as we walk past her and out the door. "Are you okay?"

Her eyes are wide and looks behind her before realizing I am talking to her and beaming at me with a bright smile. I remember what Rafe said fake it until I make it. Just nine months of this and then I am gone. "Yeah, I am. I just hate confrontation."

"Yeah, it's a bitch." Shrugging my shoulders I walk towards the teachers because I know they are going to have us do some God-awful activities, but it's better than the alternative of being near April the delusional psycho.

"Listen up students!" Why does Mr. Cole have to take charge? "For the next hour before we get the activities set up. Anyone who is my class I advise you to take this time to talk with your partner for your assignment." Just my luck. I have been trying to avoid Zander since the other day. "Unless you want to fail, be my guess and ignore my words." I plan on doing just that, but luck is definitely not on my side as Zander swings his arm across my shoulder.

"Let's go partner." Rolling my eyes I see Amelia take off and April glaring daggers at me and can't help but smirk at her. "About the other day." 

Panicking on the inside, because I do not want to talk about it, or think about it. Leaving my expression blank as I look at him. "What about the other day?" If I pretend that I don't remember it will not be awkward. Bitch move, I know, but what else am I supposed to do. Talk about feelings? I don't know about those anymore. They have been a jumbled mess since the accident that I can't remember. 

Zander's jaw ticks and I can tell I am getting under his skin. Hopefully he just believes the bullshit I spew out. "Right. You know what. I think that we are good for now. I will call you when we can meet to finish up the project." Walking away from me he grabs a girl by the wrist, and she giggles as they walk towards the woods.

Whatever, not my problem, but why am I looking at him? I try to turn away but I'm not fast enough when I see his eyes bore into mine as he picks the girl up and kisses her. Asshole! Stalking away from that mess, because I don't need it or him. I have enough drama in my life as it is right now. Looking for Rafe, I don't see him around. I wish I knew which cabin he was in. 

I really should try to make new friends because times like this I feel that itch again to just make everything numb. Walking I stop at the end of the docks and just stare out into the water. I hear the laughter around me and wish I could feel like that once again, but I can't. Guilt hangs around me for being alive while my parents died. 

"Hey, baby." Cringing I turn around to see Jordan coming towards me and I have nowhere to run.

"Leave me alone." 

"Don't be like that." His grimy hands touch my waist as I try to push him off me. His nails dig deeper into my hips knowing that they will bruise soon enough. "It's not nice to treat me this way Ari." The audacity if this asshole. 

"Like you didn't humiliate me not by just cheating on me, but a damn sex tape. Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you?!" Pushing him away but he doesn't budge. If I scream, will anyone stop this madness right now? "Let go of me."

"You don't want me to do that, do you Ari?" Walking me backwards until I'm at the edge of the dock. My eyes go wide, and he smirks at me. Has he always been this crazy and I just never saw it before? There is no one remotely close enough to help the only person who would be is sucking face with some girl in the woods now. 

Why didn't I just stick by him and do the damn project?

"Jordan, please stop this." Looking back at the water terrifies me. "Please."

"Be my girlfriend again."

"What?"

"You heard me. I promise to be better." The crazed look in his eyes has me trembling. "No other man is going to touch you. Especially not Grey!" What the hell does he got to do with this? "I saw you, two together."

"What?" Stepping back was a mistake because now I am the ledge.

"You, two are getting too damn cozy. The bitch should know what's mine!"

"I'm not yours." 

I should have just kept my mouth shut because the next thing I know is his hands let go of me and I am falling into the water. The moment water feels my lungs flashes come and go and now I wish they didn't because I remember everything from that day. From the drunk driver swerving towards our car and us going over the bridge trying to scream as water filled my lungs. I let it all in as I sink further into the lake, letting it engulf me and end me from this misery. I don't even fight to make my way back up.

I'm going to die, and I welcome it.