The delicate fragrance of fresh white tea drifted through my apartment, intertwining with the gentle hint of lavender rising from the candles I'd so carefully arranged. I moved slowly through the expansive, open space, adjusting and perfecting each detail, even as I knew everything was already flawless. My apartment rose high above the vibrant pulse of Tokyo, a sanctuary sculpted in shades of ivory and silver. Embedded lights cast a soft glow, blurring the edges of every surface and infusing the scene with a quiet warmth. Black accents broke through the monochrome, adding subtle contrast to the restrained elegance of my home. Every object was meticulously placed, each detail in perfect harmony — and perhaps that was why the chaos within me now felt so unbearable.
What had I been thinking, inviting Aika here?
For what felt like the hundredth time that night, I adjusted a slender vase on the low glass table in the living room. I barely knew her; we had only met a few weeks ago. Yet the first time she looked at me, her eyes held a light, vibrant and warm, like dawn's first glow. That gaze stirred something ancient within me, something powerful and mysterious, long buried — a part of me I could never allow her to see.
Or perhaps, I couldn't let her see it yet. The thought filled me with a fear I rarely allowed myself to feel.
A small, insistent voice whispered that perhaps she already knew. She had fainted once when I was forced to shift, a primal response in the heat of a life-or-death moment. I had no choice; I had unleashed the dragon hidden within, the fierce creature that lay coiled in the deepest reaches of my soul. When she awoke, I had hoped she hadn't truly seen my full form — scales glistening like turquoise under moonlight, eyes alive with blue flame. But sometimes, I caught her gazing at me with a look that made me wonder if she remembered it all, if she had glimpsed the beast within me. I clung to the slender hope that, for her, it had been no more than a dream. Yet doubt gnawed at me, as relentless as the fire that burned within.
With a sigh, I picked up my phone from the marble counter and opened our message thread. Aika's name glowed softly on the screen, her last message from the night before waiting patiently. *Were you out late?* she had asked, so simply, so casually, as though she truly cared. Her question had made me smile — a reaction I hadn't allowed myself in years. Her curiosity was gentle, unforced, without pretense or hidden intent. She seemed genuinely interested in me, not the mystery or the power I concealed. And that, more than anything, unnerved me.
But therein lay the problem: I had hidden my true self from the world for centuries, yet here she was, slipping through the cracks in my carefully constructed walls as though they were nothing but mist.
"Will you come to my apartment tomorrow? I'll send you the address," I had typed earlier that day. The message hovered unsent, a silent testament to my hesitation. We had already agreed to meet, but an inexplicable urgency pushed me to reconfirm. I took a deep, steadying breath and, before I could second-guess myself, pressed "Send." The message disappeared into the ether, and in its wake, a surge of adrenaline coursed through me, faster than I could contain.
I had lived through lifetimes, crossed paths with countless souls, but this... this felt different.
My phone chimed, breaking the stillness with her reply: *Of course. It's my promise! What time?*
Relief washed over me, followed by the quiet tension her presence always stirred. I typed quickly, my fingers hovering uncertainty over the cold glass screen. *Is seven okay? It'll be quiet, just us. I'll pick you up at 6:30.*
Her reply came instantly. *Oh, no! Don't bother! I'll come to you.*
I hesitated, a slight unease tightening my chest. I knew she disliked me when I didn't respect her wishes. *Alright, then. I'll wait for you at seven.*
*Perfect!* she answered, adding a small heart emoji that left me staring at the screen, unsteady. That simple symbol stirred something in me, as if the ground itself had shifted. My face warmed, an involuntary smile lifting the corners of my lips. When was the last time someone had made me feel so... alive?
I leaned against the cool marble countertop, closing my eyes in an attempt to quiet the storm of thoughts within. Why was I allowing myself to feel this way for her? I was treading into dangerous waters, risking a thousand years of careful restraint. My world was one of secrets and shadows, where magic simmered beneath the surface, barely contained. Aika didn't belong in that world. To bring her into it would mean inviting peril into her life, and the thought of her in danger was something I could not bear.
I had to temper my feelings. To let them grow unchecked would lead only to pain, perhaps even ruin. But the fact that she wanted to be here, that she wished to see this part of my life... that, in itself, was enough. It was all I could allow myself, a fleeting moment of connection before my world's tides swept it away.
The hours passed slowly, each second seeming to stretch into eternity. I drifted through the apartment, unable to find stillness. I adjusted the silver cushions on the sofa, checked the glass surfaces for fingerprints that weren't there, even trimmed the delicate bamboo by the window. Every detail had to be perfect, as though the apartment's immaculate state could somehow make up for the secrets I couldn't reveal.
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By nightfall, I was a bundle of nerves, a sensation so foreign it felt as though I were donning another's skin. I was supposed to be composed, unshakable — yet Aika stirred the calm depths of my soul, making ripples I couldn't control. Dressing carefully, I chose a fitted black shirt and dark jeans, something understated yet intentional.
Seven o'clock drew near. I paced by the door, feeling an absurd urge to check my phone again, as if she might change her mind at the last moment. Doubt whispered dark thoughts: What if she sensed my otherness? What if she recoiled, turning away without a backward glance?
And then, as if answering my silent plea, the doorbell rang.
The sound pierced the quiet atmosphere, sharp and resonant. I froze, my heart racing in my chest, breath caught somewhere between anticipation and dread.
She was here.
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Beneath the Ashes
Paranormal⚠️ ADULT STORY - Magical Realism In the quiet, lantern-lit streets of Matsushima, Sharva stumbles upon a small ramen shop hidden between towering buildings. Hungry and desperate for warmth, he steps inside-only to be captivated by Aika, the enigmati...