[TAENYFic] PASSIONATE PASSIONS. (Continues episode)

223> What Should I Do?

"Taengoo!" Mrs. Kim grips her daughter's hand slightly tighter as she watches Taeyeon fidgeting in her sleep and now slowly tossing herself le" and right like she's somehow struggling in her sleep. It wasn't until she let out a huge deep exhale only then she slowly open her eyes.
She force a small smile on to her face as she looks at her mother and return a light squeeze of her mother's hand that was holding hers, "I'm sorry..." Taeyeon apologized seeing the worries displaying all over her mother's face right now.
"The same dream again?"
Nope, it isn't like the last two dreams I had...this time, it felt like he was even leaving me in my dream. This kind of thoughts made her head aches again and her visions begin to be blurry as tears start filling in her eyes.
"Everything's going to be okay, Taengoo..."
"With time given, I'm sure I'll work my way through it someday omma" Taeyeon promises, she sighs, she felt bad for lying- well, she's just very unsure of how long it'll takes or the possibilities of it for her to make it. With so much in her thoughts, she let out another sigh before pulling her hand away so she could pull the blanket up to her nose, cowering underneath it.
Mrs. Kim frowns at the sight of her daughter acting that way but remembers the visitor outside, "But anyway, a friend of yours is here. She's been waiting for you for couple of hours now. Get freshens up and come out soon." Taeyeon turns her head to look at her mum, "A friend?" her eyebrows knitted, "Who?" but her mother reacted by only giving her a smile, shrugging her shoulders before quickly exiting her room. Leaving her dumbfound by the actions of her mother.
Could it be...Tiffany? Even simple thoughts like this could still make her heart flutters just like when the first time she realized her feelings for Ti!any. She cleans herself up in a jiff and ties her hair up.
Just as she opens the door of her bedroom, she stops exiting as she hears another female voice other than her mother's. She won't deny that she has a slight disappointment that the other voice she's hearing doesn't belong to Tiffany and now it has gotten her curiosity of who does the voice belongs to cos it doesn't sound very familiar. Walking out of her room she happens to see the back figure of the visitor and that was when her mother notices her appearance down the hallway. It was in this moment, the visitor turns her head around as well following her mother's eyes.
Her lips parted as her eyes widen, Taeyeon is surprised by the person who is sitting at her dining table, in her house is no other than AOA's Seolhyun herself.
Seolhyun quickly stood up and bow to her senior, "Sunbaenim" "It's okay, you can drop the formalities....."
Seolhyun gave Taeyeon a small dimple smile before nodding to herself, "Are you feeling any better today?"
"I..." the truth is, she doesn't. Not at all and she doesn't think it is necessary to hide how she genuinely feels. It's already tiring enough for her to put on the strong face to her fans previously. She's just getting really tired of pretending to be okay for people to acknowledge.
The momentarily paused from Taeyeon made Seolhyun's smile fade away and at the same time, the two decided to ignore the question.
"I'll head out for a bit. Going to the market nearby to get some groceries on the list for tonight's dinner. Your kitchen is running shortage of food." Mrs. Kim informs Taeyeon before turning back to gently grip Seolhyun's wrist with her hands, "Sweetie, could you do me a favour? Look after my daughter while I'm out. I'll be back real soon."
Taeyeon rolls her eyes.
"Sure, that wouldn't be a problem.." Seolhyun replied.
"Omma, your daughter is not four. She's capable of looking after herself." stated Taeyeon.
Mrs. Kim takes a look at her daughter from the head to toe before shaking her head to herself.
"What is that supposed to mean??" Taeyeon looks at her mother, pretending like she's o!ended or something.
Seolhyun giggles at the cute interaction in between the mother and daughter's conversation.
"I'll be back as soon as I can" Mrs. Kim repeats herself, "Besides, I'm pretty sure there's a lot for the two of you to catch up with. She even made you lunch."
Taeyeon look at the small spread on the dining table.
"Think you can stay for dinner?" Mrs. Kim asked Seolhyun.
Seolhyun pouted a little bit, "My lost this time. I have photoshoot to attend later this evening. Perhaps next time maybe?"
Mrs. Kim smiles at Seolhyun, "Next time it is then. I'll hurry up now...I'll be back soon."
Taeyeon and Seolhyun stood still at the same place even after Mrs. Kim has left a minute ago. When
Taeyeon look across her, Seolhyun flash an awkward smile when their eyes met briefly.
"It's...kind of awkward isn't it?" asked Seolhyun.
Kind of? Since they aren't really very close to one another anyway other than the one time Seolhyun told Shinyoung and Happy Together how much she adores Taeyeon- and because of that Taeyeon only let the latter know through the radio show that it is okay to be brave and contact her directly instead of passing messages around to other people. Besides that, she's really surprised that Seolhyun took her time to come over and prepare a meal for her so she don't think is nice to let the latter continue to feel awkward.
"Well. At least it's a good kind of awkward" Taeyeon tries to enlighten the atmosphere and make her way to one of the vacant seats. The black pot sitting in the middle of the other dishes caught Taeyeon's attention.
"Abalone porridge" said Seolhyun as she returns to her previous seat as well, "But with a special ingredient in it" she smirks a little.
"You made all of these...?" Taeyeon looks at the other dishes.
"Well yeah, why? Somewhat disbelieving?" she jokes in reply.
"No" Taeyeon chuckles, "But this is a lot..."
"This is nothing, I used to cook for my members too if they ever misses home cook meal" said Seolhyun as she picks up a ladle and Taeyeon hand over her bowl to her.
Taeyeon watch as Seolhyun stirs the pot of porridge before she scoops it into the bowl, "So, what's the secret ingredient that you mentioned?"
"It's a secret" Seolhyun insist jokingly, "But back when I lost my appetite, my mum would make this for me. It helps to open up my appetite and I believe you haven't got much appetite to eat anything lately that's why I-" she quickly stops herself and her eyes darts back and forth from the pot to Taeyeon nervously. The last thing Seolhyun wants is for Taeyeon to think she's like a know it all.
"Don't worry, you're right anyway" Taeyeon answers.
"I'm sorry if I sound nosy-"
"Since when being kind and caring equalize to being nosy?" Seolhyun blushes at the praise that she has just received from someone that she has been idolizing and adore for so long, "Oh yes and by the way, I pestered HeeChul oppa for your address here but please, don't scold him for this- is not his fault. I was annoying the hell out of him for it and he gave in at last."
"Is rather rare of him to give in this easily though"
"Truth is-" Seolhyun looks at Taeyeon in the eye as she hands the bowl filled with porridge to Taeyeon,
"We are all very worried about you..." "Sorry"
Taeyeon place the bowl in front of her as she picks up her spoon, staring absent minded into the bowl of porridge.
"You don't have to be sorry about anything. You're not supposed to feel sorry for mourning for the people you love. It's okay to mourn"
Taeyeon snaps out of her mind when she felt her hand was being held so"ly. She looks at Seolhyun, trying her best to suppress her surprise by the action. The corner of her lip went upwards briefly, "Thank you...no one, has ever said that before..."
"Said what?"
"That it was okay to mourn...people just usually try to get me to quickly get over it and whatnot" Taeyeon explains.
"Unnie, although I do not know him too well personally but I'm sure he doesn't want you to put yourself through this for too long. The one who's still living, continues to live their life...."
Taeyeon lets out a sigh.
"Your members, your friends and family, especially your fans too. I'm sure they are all worried about you. Not to be nosy but your fans are worried that you'll do something....you know-" Seolhyun circles the side of her head with her index finger to sign the word 'crazy'.
"....Wait, how did you know what they thought about??" Taeyeon asked in curiosity. "Urm....." Seolhyun hesitated.
"This..isn't going well is it?"
"No no, is nothing is just that, some of them le" a lot of their concerns through Instagram-"
"Shit...." she rubs her temple in frustration, never have she thought her fans would take the extra length to bother Seolhyun this way, she can't fully put the blame on them either. Ever since the 'confession' that Seolhyun made- some of their fans were beginning to ship the both of them.
"It's okay, Unnie...your fans are just very concern of your wellbeing...that explains their desperation to reach out to me. Besides, I, myself is very worried about you too"
"That is why I sincerely thank you for all of these" Taeyeon looks at all the dishes on the table, "and your concern as well" she smiles a little bit.
"Take a bite first, Unnie" Seolhyun urges as she looks at the bowl of porridge.
Taeyeon take a small portion of the porridge with her spoon and to be honest, the flavourful taste is actually helping on her appetite.
"Can you guess the secret ingredient?" Seolhyun ask eagerly with small excitement. "Wow....I'm no chef" Taeyeon jokes.
"But...what do you think of the porridge?"
"Urm-"
"AND you've got to be honest! No lying!" Seolhyun cuts Taeyeon o! midway.
Taeyeon takes another spoon of the porridge, "Honestly?" she looks at Seolhyun waiting with full of anticipation, "Is good"
A huge big smile appears on the latter's face, she did a fist pump in the air before retracting her arms back down.
"So. Can I know the secret ingredient now?"
"No. A secret means it supposed to be remained as a secret."
"Right. But you can share a secret if you want to?"
"Why are you so eager to know?"
"So that I can open up a business of my own and sell this" Taeyeon exaggerates jokingly. The two of them laugh out loud.
"What's my benefit for telling you the secret?"
When Seolhyun asked as such, her eyes flickers in all seriousness causing Taeyeon to gulp. "I'm just kidding, Unnie!" Seolhyun chuckles, "It's scallop. I added scallop in the porridge." "Don't you want to eat as well?" asked Taeyeon as she continues eating.
"Nope. Had my lunch before I drop by here"
"I see. Thanks again, for dropping by and even went to the extent of preparing a meal for me" "Like I said, we all cares" she smiles, "and also that you are having a concert tomorrow" "Right. Are you coming?"
Taeyeon caught Seolhyun blush for a moment before answering her.
"You must be joking right, Unnie? I can't even get into the site on the day your tickets were open for sale." she state out in frustration. Taeyeon laughs at her, "Just come then" "What.....?"
"Just come. I'm sure my manager can fix that, is just that you might need to sit with some of my members..."
"No matter whom I'm sitting with, Unnie...the point is, are you sure about this? I don't want to trouble anyone..."
"Nonsense. You're a friend and that can be fix easily, no worries. I owe you one and I insist for you to come but that is also if you want to...ask your members along too so it'll be more fun for you."
"THANK YOU, UNNIE!"
"You're welc-"
The two were interrupted by the doorbell ringing. "Did your mum forget to bring the keys?"
Taeyeon shrugs and gets up from her seat as she heads to the main door. Opening the door only to find Sooyoung standing there with two huge plastic bags which Taeyeon is pretty sure contains nothing but food in it.
"This is an intervention" "What?"
"Step out of my way, you need to eat and I'm here to make sure you do so" Sooyoung pushes her way in only to stop in her tracks when she realize they have a guest sitting by the dining table, "Hiiiiiiiiii"
"You didn't tell me that you're having a guest" Sooyoung glares at Taeyeon.
"You didn't tell me that you're coming." Taeyeon bluntly answers Sooyoung as she closes the door and heads back to the dining table, "Come join us. Seolhyun made some delicious porridge today."
Soon a"er less than 15 minutes, Seolhyun informed that her manager has already arrived at the property's basement. She declined Taeyeon's o!er to send her o! hence she bid goodbye to the two members of Girls Generation and took her leave.
Taeyeon snorts at the funny looks that Sooyoung is giving to her right now as she closes the main door after Seolhyun left, "What"
"Does....Tiffany knows about this?"
"Why does Tiffany needs to know about this? And no, she doesn't."
"She won't like it"
"She doesn't have a choice. I didn't invite her, she came by herself..."
"So Ti!any's hunch was right after all...." Sooyoung rubs her chin as if she has solved a mystery. "Let me guess, the hunch is that Seolhyun is having a crush on me?" "Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss"
Taeyeon laughs.
"So? Is true then??"
"How do I know? Bottom line, she's just here to prepare a meal for me. Like any concern friend will do."
Sooyoung gasp and grab the front of her own T-shirt, "That hurt. I just didn't have the time to cook for you. Trust me, when I'm free from my schedule, I'll make sure you grow real fat-"
"I'm glad you came as well, Choi Sooyoung if that means anything to you." Taeyeon roll her eyes as she smiles.
"Hmm. It's all for you anyway" Sooyoung hands over the two huge plastic bags to Taeyeon across the table.
Taeyeon rummage through the plastic bags, the first one contains all kind of candies and the other one has all kind of gummy candies, "Whoaaa" her eyes sparkles in interest, "Thanks!"
"Don't thank me on this, thank her" said Sooyoung, "Ti!any told me to do her a favour since she knows you most probably have finished the ones you have in your snack box."
I miss you.
*****
Things haven't been well for both ends.
Taeyeon found out on the company that Ti!any has signed up with and frankly, she isn't very happy with Tiffany's decision.
Tiffany : He's a friend I can really rely on! I have ZERO ideas on how some management side works, I needed him.
Taeyeon : You. Needed. Him.
Tiffany : Oh geez, can you not put it that way? I needed his two cents worth when it comes to certain aspect of the entertainment line.
Taeyeon : And you think other companies in L.A. aren't as capable as him?
Tiffany : What is it about him that is ticking you o!??? I don't understand, I thought we're over the getting jealous on every-guy-that's-close-to-Tiffany phase?
Taeyeon : Right. Fine.
Tiffany : What do you mean with that?
Taeyeon : Fine. Do what you want. Do what you think is right.
Tiffany : What is it about him that o!ended you?
Taeyeon : Every single bit of him!
Tiffany : What?
Taeyeon : I'm done about him.
Tiffany : Is this how it ends? I stayed up way past midnight to share this news with you-
Taeyeon : You should get some rest soon then.
Tiffany : Wow, seriously...?
Taeyeon : If you don't want him to be the reason of our argument, is best to end it this way.
Tiffany : I'm coming back to Korea soon for a visit, for Hyorin's wedding. Perhaps we can talk about it by then...
Taeyeon : We'll see.
Tiffany : Goodnight. Taeyeon : Night.
Taeyeon slums her body onto the bed, dropping her phone right next to her as she lets out a deep sigh. When Tiffany has talked about a few of her options on choosing a label that she wants representing her, Taeyeon has did her homework too and learn the background of the few companies given by Tiffany. Quite frankly she doesn't really like the record label that belongs to Tiffany's friend, Kev Nish. She just doesn't feel comfortable at all about him. She trust her girlfriend but as much as her heart is telling her that Tiffany is old enough to take care of herself- she also won't deny that Ti!any sometimes can overlook at some people's bad motive behind of helping her out.
*****
Sunny and Yuri shrieking on top of their lungs the moment Ti!any show up at their dormitory's front door, they welcomed her by pulling her into their arms. The rest of the members were all smiling, happy that they have finally been able to gather altogether ever since their take o! on changing companies from SME.
"How long can you stay?" Sunny asked.
Tiffany finally found the person that she was looking for the most but Taeyeon was busy playing video games with Hyoyeon. Her focus completely on the game which kind of disappoint Tiffany a little but nevertheless, she decided not to show any negativity expression on her face that could make her members worry or know that she's not fine.
"Fany-ah??" Sunny tugs Tiffany's arm a couple of times as she pouts pitifully.
"Y-yeah?? I'm sorry, what was the question again?"
"I asked how long will you be staying here?"
"I have a midnight flight tonight to catch, so, I have all the time here till my departure time..." she smiles.
"Do you need one of us to drop you at the airport?" Yuri asked as she walks to the dining table to help Yoona on preparing the table for dinner, "I drove today."
"No, that's okay. Urm, I- my colleague will be heading to the airport with me as well so-" Taeyeon throws the game controller onto the co!ee table all of a sudden.
"The heck" Hyoyeon looks at Taeyeon, "What the fuck, dude..."
"I'm bored with this game already" Taeyeon scratches the back of right ear.
"I guess that's a no to that" Sunny cheekily whispers into Tiffany's ear.
Well then at least I knew I'm still somewhere in her heart - Tiffany looks at Taeyeon but sadly, things aren't mutual in between them right now.
Sooyoung joins Hyoyeon and Taeyeon by the couch, giving a light slap on Taeyeon's back. "Should I tell her the time when Seolhyun came?"
Taeyeon shoots death threats towards Sooyoung through her eyes.
It is awkward in between the two but Taeyeon tried her best not to show too much of displeasure coming from her ends. This reunion wasn't easy for them to gather together as a whole and she doesn't want to be the one who ruin the atmosphere. She's happy to see Tiffany of course, how badly she wanted to grab Tiffany away from her members and keep Tiffany to herself because there's just so much to say and ask- mostly on the asking part. Taeyeon realize the girl looks thinner too compare to the last time she last saw her. She couldn't help but to be consistently reminded by her brain that Kev came to Korea with Ti!any he's going to travel back together with her as well. That really makes her superbly uncomfortable just by the thoughts of it, them on the plane, sitting next to each other side by side.
Their members are clever enough to give several reasons to leave earlier than they had planned. Initially they thought of hanging out till Tiffany have to leave for the day but knowing how much the couple would miss each other, they want the two to have their own privacy while Tiffany can stay. Their motives were so obvious that Taeyeon decide to wash all the plates that they've used during dinner to delay having to talk to Tiffany. She knows Tiffany will bring the topic that had made them argue a little over the phone couple of weeks ago. The longer she can delay, the better her heart is beating normally.
Her heart is beating unusually quicker than the normal paces are when she heard Tiffany bidding farewell to Yoona, the last member in the dorm, once again she's surprise how Tiffany can still makes her feel although for what she has been through lately. Nervous as fuck when she felt Tiffany's arm wrapping around her waist so tightly from the back, "How long do you plan to avoid on acknowledging my presence?" Taeyeon trembles at Tiffany's so" whisper against her earlobe and when Tiffany sort of nibble softly on Taeyeon's earlobe, that sends shiver down Taeyeon's spine like instantly.
"What?" Taeyeon thank God that her voice wasn't shaky as she replies Tiffany, "I wasn't" she lied.
"Denial" Tiffany pushes the collar of Taeyeon's shirt aside so that she could bite down on the shoulder hard enough to cause Taeyeon to jerk and shout, "I see through you. Are you seriously still mad about Kev? You don't even know him-"
"I don't need to know him personally to know that I don't like him" Taeyeon place the last cleaned cup that she has just washed, into the dryer.
"Then why are you letting him gets in our way? Besides, he's a colleague. That's the fact we have to face."
Taeyeon wipes her hands o! her apron, "That's because you insist to be signed under his record label. Why?"
"Tae, he's a friend. I feel way more comfortable to rely on him on some certain aspect. I don't want to know not much about the industry as a solo artist and to be taken advantage of."
"And you trust that guy will not take any advantages of you?"
Tiffany's eyes widen at Taeyeon's statement. She trust Kev and is disgusting to think that he would even go to such extent. She can't understand how Taeyeon could hate him since she hasn't met or know him personally.
"The least you could do is at least trust me if you can't trust him, right?" "I trust you. But judgment can be wrong too at times, right?"
"Oh my God-"
"That is why I said don't put him in our topic" Taeyeon turns away and heads to the fridge just so she could avoid having any further argument with Tiffany, she could feel her own face heated up in anger, she can't understand why Tiffany insist that he's an alright guy to trust her career and herself with. She opens up the fridge door and peeks inside, "What do you want to have? Juice? Carbonated drinks? Alcohol-" her words stuck at her throat when she felt Ti!any hugs her again from the back.
"You." Tiffany rest her chin on Taeyeon's shoulder blade, "I want you" #
Taeyeon stares blankly at the ceiling above her with Tiffany typing away on her phone right next to her. Taeyeon wonder if they had sex because she wanted it as well or purely out of lust or simply just because Tiffany wants it because she can swear, sex wasn't even on her list or mind when she knows about Tiffany's visit. Is that why she's feeling this way about it right now? Tiffany rest half of her sweaty body on tops of Taeyeon's, she uses her index finger to draw invisible lines across Taeyeon's features on her face, "What's running through your mind right now, Tae? You seem to be thinking a lot"
Taeyeon look at Tiffany's flushed cheeks, sweaty forehead then towards that beautiful pair of eyes. She can't bear to hurt Tiffany's feeling with her thoughts. How would that girl feel if she tells her 'oh I never thought of having sex with you and now I'm thinking if I'm regretting it because I allowed lust took over me' "Nothing"
"Tae, is that how it's going to be...."
"Hmm?" Taeyeon wrap an arm around Tiffany's shoulders.
"You being absorb into your thoughts, spacing out and not telling me anything." with that said, Tiffany felt a squeeze on her shoulder coming from Taeyeon, "What was it....is it him?" she asked in a careful tone.
"Not completely." said Taeyeon after a few seconds of silent, "I guess I'm just still trying to adapt to the fact that you're back to living in the States...Jonghyun being in heaven...you know, just random stu!s like that. Your colleague is not that worthy enough to stay in my mind for this long." she let out a cheeky snicker hoping it would lighten up Tiffany's guilt.
"I love you, is that not enough to make you feel secure?"
"Love is complicated, Fany-ah" Taeyeon sighs.
"Let's uncomplicated it then!" Tiffany pouts.
Taeyeon looks at the girl being in her arm, "I wish it was that easy...I hope you understand my part too, Fany..."
Tiffany pulls Taeyeon's arm around her and held it against her chest, "I want to help you not to feel that way. Does it makes you feel better if you were to know that I cry every single time when I'm alone in L.A. when I thought about you? It wasn't easy for me either, Tae....trust me" she press her nose against Taeyeon's arm.
It does hurt Taeyeon to know about this now, Tiffany has never told Taeyeon about it before. Taeyeon turn on her side to face Tiffany, she pulls the latter into her chest.
"What if....." Taeyeon bit her bottom lip as she hesitated to say what's next, "What if we are to be in an open relationship? Will that do you better?"
"WHAT"
Tiffany pushes herself against Taeyeon so she could look at Taeyeon directly in the eyes. "I meant if"
"Is that for your benefit or mine?" "Yours of course! You're beautiful, you look straight, you're in college, you're famous and you're a freshman. This ticks o! every boy's wish list."
"I look what? Straight??? How do you even label a person that way???" "I-"
"I'm going to take a bath" Tiffany leaves Taeyeon's side.
"Wait, what?" she looks at Tiffany sitting at the edge of the bed and picking up her lingerie from the floor, "Wait, why are you mad at me..?"
"Seriously?" she throws a death glare at Taeyeon before picking her shirt up and puts her head over it. Tiffany ignores Taeyeon and heads towards the bathroom without sparing a glance.
Taeyeon quickly wraps her body up in her thin comforter before making her way to the bathroom before Tiffany could close the door on her, "I'm sorry if I said something wrong or that it doesn't please your ears but-"
"You don't even know what you're apologizing for, GET OUT" Ti!any said through her gritted teeth.
"Maybe I've put it in a wrong way but think about it, won't you leave in ease to know that you are not tied to me?"
"In case you haven't notice, I'm a grown woman, Tae." Tiffany held a bobby pin in between her teeth as she pulls her hair up and tie it in a bun before using the bobby pin to hold her fringe up, "I clearly know what I want...If you want to be in an open relationship, okay, fine, I'll respect that choice of yours but I'm clear that I'm in a relationship with you and a rather serious one too."
Tiffany takes o! her T-shirt as she makes her way to the shower room. "Have you ever thought what if you fell in love with a guy?"
Taeyeon watch how Tiffany's fingers tighten into a fist. Without any warning, Tiffany turns around and stomp her way back to where Taeyeon was standing at. Once she's close enough to Taeyeon, Tiffany pulls the thin blanket o! that was covering Taeyeon's body.
"If this even prove anything" Tiffany mutters.
"Huh? What?"
Tiffany goes on her knees and the only thing that fills up the bathroom was Taeyeon's moans.
#
A smirk appears on Tiffany's face when she saw how Taeyeon reacted as she place her hand on Taeyeon's inner thigh.
"Yahhh, I'm driving" Taeyeon whines loudly.
"I'm just resting my hand." Tiffany replies in her most innocent tone. "I'm still sensitive okay" Taeyeon mumbles under her breath as she tries to focus on the highway which leads them to the airport where Tiffany's taking her flight tonight, "He's there?"
"I don't know, I guess so..." Tiffany remove her hand from Taeyeon's inner thigh and check on her phone to see if there's any messages from Kev but knowing Taeyeon quite well, she turn her head to look at Taeyeon so fast that the latter was unable to hide her discomfort.
"Tae, maybe someday-" her voice trails off,  unsure if she should continue with what she's about to suggest. The last thing she ever wants right now was Taeyeon to be angry as she leaves Korea tonight.
"Yeah?"
"Nothing. Is stupid.."
"Hm"
Tiffany knows if somehow she doesn't get an answer to some of the questions in her mind, she can't leave Korea with a peace of mind "Can I ask why?"
"Like what?"
Tiffany rests her head sideway on the window as she looks at Taeyeon, "Why the hate...."
"I don't know. Call it instinct or whatever. I just don't have good feeling when it comes to him" Taeyeon briefly looks over at Tiffany. She grips the steering wheel tightly that it made her knuckles turn pale, "Even if you're going to date someone, I definitely hopes he's not the one. Anyone but him or your ex."
Tiffany sigh, "Tae....."
"Cos you deserve a man that loves you more than they love themselves. A man that gives you all the
attention that you need more than the attention they are seeking for for themselves." "Tae-"
"A man that doesn't just consistently tries to make you fall in love with him with all his flexes but instead, falls for you, your beautiful smile that appears every single time-"
"I don't need any man but Kim Tae Yeon okay. Is that clear?" Tiffany offers her left palm to Taeyeon.
Taeyeon took Ti!any's hand in hers, kissing the knuckles softly before placing their intertwine hands on her leg.
Driving into the airport basement parking lot, Taeyeon managed to find a secluded corner parking lot. Tiffany unbuckles her seatbelt, "I'm going to miss this mochi face" she reaches out and cups Taeyeon's face in her hands, giving a few squeezes by pinching Taeyeon's soft cheek.
Taeyeon takes both of Ti!any's hands in hers, I want you to know that whatever that may happens in the future, you'll forever be someone I will never stop caring about Fany-ah...
"Hey" Tiffany softly whispers as she look at Taeyeon who is looking at their hands absent mindedly, "It won't be long till we see each other again...trust me." Taeyeon sighs but smile at Tiffany, "It doesn't feel that way"
"Tae"
"Promise me one thing?" Taeyeon suddenly change the topic.
"What is it?"
"Always selfishly prioritize yourself first in any ways, in any situations." Taeyeon looks at Tiffany with concern.
"Okay, TaeTae" and they sealed it with a kiss.
Reality used to be so much better than dreams because you're in it, now that everything have change- dreams and reality are both nightmares again.
*****
Sunny follows the loud vomiting sound as it leads her to the master bedroom's bathroom. The sight of Taeyeon kneeling right infront of the toilet bowl, the veins on her neck can be seen appearing behind her fair pale skin as she threw her head forward to vomit, her knuckles turning pale white as she gripped the edge of the toilet bowl tightly.
"Yah Kim Tae Yeon-" Sunny hurriedly rushes to Taeyeon's side, wanting to help ease the latter's situation by softly patting Taeyeon's back but only to be shoved away.
"Get out" Taeyeon said through her gritted teeth, before shutting her eyes closed as she felt another wave coming back up from her throat.
It isn't the first time anyway for Taeyeon to get rid of people when she's at her weakest point hence Sunny respectly obeys the instructions and sat in the living room with a heavy heart and worries filled in her.
Half an hour later.
Taeyeon made her way out to the living room with her wobbly knees where Sunny is waiting for her patiently.
"All better?" Sunny asked as she taps the vacant seat next to her.
Taeyeon nodded and sat right next to Sunny as requested, "I'm sorry"
"Shh" Sunny hushed the pale looking latter, "I understand, it ain't the first time either"
Taeyeon's face immediately fell a"er hearing the words came out from Sunny's mouth.
"I don't mean it in a bad way okay, stop guilting yourself" Sunny reaches out for the mug in front of them, "Just the right time, is kinda warm now." she o!ers the mug to Taeyeon, "Honey lemon tea should do the trick."
"Thanks Soonkyu" Taeyeon sighs and took the mug with both her hands as she believe her trembling hands won't do justice if she were to take it with a hand.
"What's the reason this time?"
"I believe is the new medication...or maybe I've accidentally overdose it...I don't know, I'm not sure" Taeyeon rubs the front of her forehead.
"Tae, you know this is not okay right?"
"Yeah, I know...I'm trying Soonkyu and no I did not overdose myself on purpose either."
"What's bothering you?"
Her. Us.
Taeyeon shakes her head, "I can't tell-"
"Miyoung?" Sunny watch as she mentions the name and how Taeyeon tries to keep herself compose.
"Is not just her. Stop guessing. Please?"
"Tae. You need to speak out or else-" she stops herself from finishing.
"I'm fine" Taeyeon insist.
"You know you're not no matter how many times you're trying to tell yourself that you are. Things don't work that way."
"I'm coping just fine!" Taeyeon place the mug harshly back onto the table infront of them.
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[Sunny > Tiffany : Hey, free to talk?]
[Tiffany > Sunny : OMG HUNNY BUNNY! HEY!! OF COURSE! ANYTIME FOR MY HUNNY!]
[Sunny > Tiffany : I know I am not supposed to interfere, I am not, at least that's what I think but my friend's sanity is really important to me right now, so, I had to.. I hope you understand where I'm coming from]
[Tiffany > Sunny : You're scaring me Bunny..does this have something to do with Taengoo?]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Exactly. Look, I am sincerely really worried about her situation hence I am not trying
to expose her or anything bad... What I'm about to say or ask is all for her sake.]
[Tiffany > Sunny : Yes, I get it.]
[Tiffany > Sunny : Is she fine though!?]
[Sunny > Tiffany : She is. At the moment.]
[Tiffany > Sunny : Bunny... TT TT]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Did you talked to her recently?]
[Tiffany > Sunny : About what exactly? Wait, did she tell you anything?]
[Sunny > Tiffany : That's the problem, she did not and didn't want to.]
When Tiffany wanted to reply Sunny that there's nothing odd in the conversation in between her and Taeyeon, she then remembers last week, when Taeyeon suddenly came up with the idea to go with an open relationship to which Tiffany strongly goes against with the idea and even scolded the latter for coming up with such an idea.
[Sunny > Tiffany : Did you guys argue any recently?]
[Tiffany > Sunny : No, but Sunny, can you tell me what exactly happened to Taeng that made you so worry about?]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Did you know she's taking medication to control her depression?]
Tiffany felt her heart sank to bottom of her stomach as she reads the message she had just received. No, she had no idea that Taeyeon's depression were so severe to the extend where she needs medication to control it. Why was Taeyeon hiding this serious issue from her?
[Tiffany > Sunny : NO]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Then please don't go and confront her about it. I'm sure she has her own reasons to
hid it from you... probably just didn't want you to worry about it]
[Tiffany > Sunny : Confuckingratulations to her cos this just made me worry about her ten times even
more!]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Calm down. There's no solution if you're mad at her for this and confronting her about this is definitely not a bright idea]
[Tiffany > Sunny : So, other than taking medication to control her depression, what else... Please, you've got to tell me about it]
[Sunny > Tiffany : All I know is that she's taking it to control it, nothing more. She wouldn't tell. You know how stubborn she can gets]
[Sunny > Tiffany : I mean, I had my suspicion...it's either regards to her relationship or Jonghyun oppa]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Since you can't confront her about this without her knowing that we've talked, because the last thing I want was for her to shut herself o! completely. I think is best you try to talk more with her about her day or something. She's either doing her schedule or she's right back locking herself up in that room of hers]
[Tiffany > Sunny : Didn't she recently indulge herself into that mobile game lately? PUBG?]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Yes but can you imagine when she's not playing the game?]
[Tiffany > Sunny : I get what you mean and thank you for the heads up, Sunny. It means a lot to me. Especially when it comes to her well being.]
[Sunny > Tiffany : Same here. If there's anything you need me to do. Just ring me, okay? You know eventhough she's the eldest but she definitely needed the most protection and concern from all of us]
Tiffany drops her phone right next to her on the couch as she lets out an exhausting sigh.
"What's wrong?" he looks at her.
"Nothing"
He sits right next to her and taps her thigh with the documents that he was reading before this, "That's not nothing. I don't like seeing you like this.."
"Hold on" Tiffany picks her phone up. She wants to text her, she wants to know, she wants to help but just how does she starts the conversation without trigerring Taeyeon's suspicion.
Kevin peeks over Tiffany's phone screen playfully before she moves her away from his sight out of discomfort.
"Sorry. Just worry about you, Steph."
"I'm fine. Is just, there are some things that I need to get it sort later. I don't think I can join the group
discussion..." Tiffany packs up her books into her bag, "You don't mind that right, Kev?"
"I don't but I really do hope you tell me your problems" he cross his arms, taking a deep inhale.
"Is...rather personal" her voice trails o! while she gets up packing her belongings on the studio table.
"That personal that it is consuming so much of your positive energy? That person must've be really important."
"Does being an artist means I can no longer have a personal life?" her voice sounded resentful.
Kevin immediately stood up from his place and held Ti!any by the wrist, "Sorry, that's not what I meant. I don't want you getting all pissed at me. You're more than just an artist under my company. You're a friend somewhat like a business partner at times too" he chuckles.
I must've really allowed this to get all worked up on me...Tiffany thought and felt guilty for trashing her anger out like that, especially when Kevin is her manager, "School + artist. I'm just still trying to make a balance out of it"
"And you're doing great" he chim.
She smile, "Thanks but I just need to get home earlier today and sort some stu!s out. Promise I'll be back as new tomorrow."
Kevin shows a thumbs up to Ti!any before crossing his arms, "I just need the same Steph back. Take all the time you need. We can discuss tomorrow."
"Thanks!"
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[Tiffany > Taeyeon : Any schedules today?]
[Taeyeon > Tiffany : Nope. You?]
[Taeyeon > Tiffany : Thought you said there's a meeting tonight?]
[Tiffany > Taeyeon : Supposedly. But it's o! now.]
[Taeyeon > Tiffany : Had your dinner?]
[Tiffany > Taeyeon : Yup ^-^ had your lunch?]
[Taeyeon > Tiffany : Yes]
[Tiffany > Taeyeon : So you're free now, right? Can I call you?]
There was no reply instead, Taeyeon called Tiffany right away a"er receiving the text message.
Taeyeon : Hey!
Tiffany : Hello stranger, that was quick.
The both of the chuckles.
Taeyeon : Is rare to have a chance to speak to you these days, so why not grab the opportunity?
Tiffany wonders how many times in a day her heart can break as she listen to Taeyeon's chirpy voice. The reason she asked for them to talk over the phone was for only one sole purpose- to talk about their relationship and to Taeyeon's suggestion a few days ago.