Under the mask

Chapter two

Lloyds POV 

I was sitting alone in my room, my back against my bed frame silent fears rolling down my face and blurring my vision. The monastery was quiet cause everyone else as at the party having fun, celebrating. Celebrating because ninjago's greatest villain was defeated, garmadon, my father and for the cherry on top harumi the worst back staber ever who tried to kill us ... Me multiple times, who brought back my father no garmadon but worst of all the girl who stole my heart. I didn't bother wiping the taste from my eyes anymore just let them call to the floor. What has I done wrong I tried so hard so so hard but it never seemed to be enough there was always one more problem one more mistake one more burden. Why could know see how badly I was broken or maybe they just didn't care. I wouldn't blame them I'm just important as the green ninja. they all have Lord garmadon son and they all love the green ninja what about me what about Lloyd. Everyone says Kimmel lucky being the green ninja and I have a perfect life. Yeah right if they spent one day in my shoes they would say different but I can't break down i can't quit cause I don't get that choice like I didn't get to choose to be the green ninja or garmadons son but I'm here and I'm still fighting for the people who hate me.

Trigger warning here self harm !!!! Please skip past if you feel uncomfortable or this triggers you 

I reach to my left and pick up the kitchen knife the cold blade pressed against my pale skin littered in scars. I press harder and draw a line across my wrist and blood beings to show. I'm cutting over scars and it is getting harder as my skin has started to form a thicker layer. Just more one I say but I know it will be more. Just one more

Trigger warning over please return my lovely readers 

Jays POV 

We left the party early since Kai got in to a fight with some ex sog member and is at the hospital with the red headed girl. She had a broken arm from the guy Kai was fine but the other guy well let's just say he won't be going near Kai again.

We are in two cars me Nya and cold are in this one and the others are picking Kai up and probably the girl. "Hey Nya " I say "mm..." She mumbles into my shoulder tired from the party. " was Lloyd with the others? " I ask trying to member where I last was him. " no he stayed home member " she says almost asleep on my shoulder " oh yeah" I remember he had a stomach ache so we left without him but the others had already gone so they wouldn't of known well I guess they just thought he was with us. " out you get guys we are home" shouted cole startling Nya. I pick her up and carry her inside placing her in bed and climbing in.

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 I think I will do short but often chapters cause that is what fits my life