Nick sturniolo sickfics/hurtfics

I'm fine

𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆 𝘀𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗳𝗶𝗰 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗜'𝗺 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝗶𝘁 𝗹𝗼𝗹. 

𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗺𝗲𝗿: 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁. 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝗰𝘆𝗯𝗲𝗿𝗯𝘂𝗹𝗹𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀. 

Everything was good. Music was loud enough for the sound to be heard even two streets down. The smell of vodka and alcohol was enough to make a person gag. Everyone was having fun, dancing around having the time of their life. 

Nick wasn't. 

He was supposed to be happy. Yet he wasn't. He didn't even have a reason to be sad, he had everything anyone could wish for. Two very caring brothers, money, a good fanbase, popularity, everything. Yet he didn't understand why he felt as if his soul was slowly being sucked out of him. His brothers were laughing, talking, having fun. Why couldn't he be more like them? They were everything someone would want in a guy, they were good-looking, caring, kind and most importantly fit. 

Yet he was the exact opposite. He was fat, not kind enough, he definitely was not good-looking. He tried, he really really did, but no matter how much he tried there was no change. 

Sometimes he felt bad for their parents, they didn't deserve to have such a bad son. He was exactly the cheap copy of Matt and Chris. It would've been good if he just wasn't there. His parents won't be that sad would they? They had Justin, matt and Chris and they had eachother. He was that one piece that didn't exist in the puzzle.

He was deep in his thoughts when he felt a hand on his shoulder. 

"Nick, you okay?" Chris asks to him concerned that he wasn't talking. "Huh? Yeah I'm fine" Nick says giving him a small smile. 

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After that little interaction with Chris Nick started talking with them being his usual happy and energetic self, how he was 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 to be. He was actually happy talking and having fun with his brothers and friends. Happy on the ride home. Happy while washing up. 

But the happiness didn't last very long.

As he began to make his way upstairs after a very long conversation with his brothers that the reality began to set in. Something else also closed up on Nick as we shut his door and locked. 

He was there again, drowning in the loneliness and his own misery.

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He barely slept. 

It was 15 past midnight when he woke up with a jolt, sweating furiously. He tossed and turned trying to sleep but it was far from coming any soon. It was around 1 when he got tired from trying to sleep. He chuckled at that. 

When nothing worked he finally got up from his bed and made his way to his computer table turning it on deciding to watch something or edit their videos. He got more stressed thinking that. He was very behind work, he thought. But he was too tired to edit right now so he just decided to watch their old videos. He laughed quietly watching them. After finishing the video he decided to read the comments hopefully something that will lift up his mood. The scrolled seeing comments for either the video or matt and Chris

𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. He decided.

Soon he found comments about him, he wished he didn't.

𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘵, 𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦. 

𝘖𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘶𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦

 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘬

𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘶𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘴

𝘕𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮

He didn't know when it started but there were tears streaming down his face. He slowly shut down the computer not wanting to see the comments anymore.

Nick knew that he shouldn't take these seriously and they were just taking a shit out of him but he couldn't help it.

And the worst part was that 𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘥

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𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘦. 𝘋𝘰 𝘭𝘮𝘬 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘺'𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵 (𝘪𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘶𝘱 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴)