angst, moonflower (dandyXastro) and lasty feeling like you are dead! the reader is warned.
--DANDY's POV--
as I sat up onto my bed as I couldn't very much sleep I looked at the ceilling it was plain white, boring. as I looked over Vee; she was charging
it's long..
..
VERY long
'beep.. BEEEEEEEEE-'
oh great she's beeping again I swear.. I will hack into her system one day- wait what am I saying? eh
as Vee booted up I stared at her
"oh hi sis!" i said, tiredly but still excited
'uhm yeah hi Dandy..' Vee said.. wait WHY DOES SHE SOUND SAD?!
"are you feeling down..?"
'nahh dont worry 'bout me!'
"okay.."
I still was worried about her.. she's my sister after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!m!!!!!!!!!!!:!!!!!!!!
"can i have waffles?-"
'yeah I-'
--VEE's POV--
'yeah I-' and there he was.. gone before i could talk- sometime his teleporting power are still surprising! i sigh and get up from by bed and see a neatly made green bow. did Dandy do that? probably.. he was always really crafty and handy; i take the bow to look at it from a closer view and-
"IM HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY" that what you could hear from the kitchen.. welp im going to see him now i guess-
as i enter the kitchen i see Dandy, sitting on a chair looking at his phone- oh wait sorry; FLIP phone, I got him that phone a few years ago.. he's really clingy for it.
It's kinda funny how he love it last time he basically throwed a thantrun because he couldn't find it but eh-
i took the waffle and- wait no that the normal one.. i put the waffles back into the freezer and took chocolate one and putted them into the toaster grabbed the chocolate syrup and i turn and.. WAIT WHERE IS DANDY?! oh god his teleporting power?! or was it astro who was pranking me again..
I look at the couch and i see astro- of course it was him.. he is really sneaky too since he is always quiet! And he was in the couch holding Dandy close to him; basically cuddling on the couch. MY couch, eh its fine i guess- they are such lovebird.. the waffles are finished and i do two more for astro, i put chocolate syrup on dandy's waffles and i wait once again mostly beccause dandy's waffle are still hot but because the waffle im making for astro are still in the toaster
-- (-fifften minute later after everyone finishes-) --
--ASTRO's POV--
i looked at dandy as he look tired..? he sometime dont sleep and that concern me.. last time he had a panic attacck and almost passed out.. he get more and more anxious everyday..
"dandy?" i call his name concern showing on my face
"uh yes hun..?" he answered, his voice a bit weak. he tended to lie to vee to not make her concerned..
"are you okay..?.." i asked, my voice letting a low sigh
"..."
no answer..
the silence was tense and long
and loud
i sigh, this time more audible
"please answer me" i pleaded a bit worried for him
"i-i'm fine.." he answered
"don't lie to me please.."
he sigh and look in my eyes, i look back at his eyes. tears where rolling down and he suddently hugged me, i pat his back and kiss his forehead while im hugging his back again; he was always sensible.. a bit weird for him since he was 15 but i loved to comfort him he was such a loveable and cute boy.. girl? my mind was always going to thses thought. he was genderfluid so i didnt knew which pronouns to use so i would use him and if he told me to use she i would immediatly apologize and re-phrase my sentence
"are you alright?" i ask again pushing a bit
.. he finally answered
"n-no.. i feel like im dead in the inside.. i dont feel like a girl or a boy or sometime i feel like im both.. im a vessel trying to find their identity and it hurt so much.."
oh so that was wrong..
"well what do you feel right now? a boy.. a girl... both... none?" i asked, to not say anything mean or something
"i feel.. like a girl..?" he said without any eye contact was he perhaps.. ashamed of not feeling liek a boy?
"its fine darling to you want me to use she/her when you feel like a girl?"
"y-you dont mind..?"
"of course not! your my boyfriend/girlfriend after all!"
--DANDY's POV--
he didnt minded? i couldnt believe my ears- or NON-EXISTENT ears!
"i-i love you so much!" i said before hugging him tightly and gave him a smooch onto his cheek and he grabbed my two cheeks and kissed me, i was as red as a red velvet cake!
"why are you so red my love?" he asked me i went even redder i loved so much
"for nothing.. i love you.." after a while i fell asleep, i was pretty tired for the past days that where passing before that day
he didnt minded it thought
all he wanted was being with me
and i also wanted that,
i love him with all my heart
even if that mean i'll have to do ANYTHING for him.. i wouldn't mind if it was for him..
he would never hurt me
right?
why am i thinking everynight of that question? 'will he hurt me?' i keep thinking of that question everyday when i wake up and every evening before going to sleep
i didnt want to think about it.. he love me... and he will always
since that day where he told me he would respect my identity i knew he was perfect for me.. but what if it was only maniplation..
my mind was filled with thought like these for no reason i was probably just overthinking again like i would usually do..
i feel dead; without any soul inside of me.. drained from any sort of life inside of me i hated that feeling but why does it come everytime? it hurt.. it hurt so much... i dont wanna have that feeling in my body.. this body feel like its dying and im only the mere objection of my soul that is searching a place to stay. to feel protected and safe from everyone but this body is out of time and dying and rotting all around me...
maybe it is time..
A/N: THIS WAS SOOO FUCKING FUN TO WRITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!§!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-made by owner 1
number of words: 1048
