Broken Speed | Lestappen

12 | little puppy

-|- Miami -|-

It was now nearly four weeks since I had last seen Charles. After that night where he had left my apartment he was with his girlfriend, spending the remaining days with her before they flew over to China for the next race.

After that the race in Japan had taken place and luckily I could stay at home. Christian though texted me, but I simply said I was sick so I didn't had to do the sponsor things there. The truth was, I wasn't.

And this time it wasn't even the fact that I hated doing media stuff, no, I simply didn't want to see Charles. After the evening we had spend together, hell, the night we had cuddled together, he was busy with his girlfriend.

Of course he still texted, but as I asked when we would have time for the kids again he said he's not sure and busy at the moment, and asked if they needed anything. Obviously they didn't. Of course Luke and Lio sometimes asked for the fast Ferrari driver, but I was the one who wanted to see him again.

Not particular because I wanted to have him close to me, also this was a reason but the main one was that in such a situation he would be away from his girlfriend. She seemed like a nice woman on pictures I'd seen of her, but I was jealous, as simple as that.

Also because I saw how happy and open the kids had been around him, while now they were quiet and a bit sad again, like before the start of the season. That was also the reason why I had decided to take them with me this weekend.

I mean Miami wasn't around the corner, but Christian said I had no choice, I must be there for some media and interview and of course I didn't wanna leave Luka and Lio behind. Also being in America for the first time would surely make them happy.

So currently we were on our way to the hotel, Lio's head laying on my lap in the backseat of the cab as he was still sleeping. Luka meanwhile looked out of the windows, stunned by the American country.

"There's the sea!" the older boy suddenly beamed and gestured outside the window, "It's so cool."

I smiled as I was glad that he liked it as the travel here had really been exhausting. We flew private again of course, but it still was a long and tiring flight, for them as also for me.

"That's great." I commented Luka's enthusiasm before I looked back on my phone where I had my plan of the weekend.

It was just the usual schedule with interviews, signing session and this time there also was a dinner with sponsors on Saturday. I was still trying to figure out how to cancel it, as obviously I wouldn't leave Luka and Lio alone.

After checking today's appointments I then drifted over to Instagram where I saw the newest post of the formula 1 channel, a picture of Charles and a dog.

Welcome the cutest member of the paddock, Leo.

Well, Charles was looking good, cute as always as his dimples were showing, I thought before I looked away from him. While in the background Alex was walking, the Monegasque in the front had a little puppy in his arms.

It was sweet, really, but it only hurt me again, knowing the Charles was building his family with Alex. The last bit of hope, even though I was hurt from his behavior, that I had, that he might he like me, it died.

"Omg is that Charles's dog? I didn't know he had one." Luka suddenly said as he had sat back down, looking at my phone screen.

"Looks like it is, he probably got it in the last weeks." I returned, feeling some tears building up.

I had been mad at him, yes, and I still was, but I just thought I will give him the cold shoulder for these weeks, only replying shortly to his texts and then when I see him again we will be happy again and I can get closer. But with that, everything I'd ever imagined only got more distant.