Mm.. Morning already?
I take my prosthetic from the desk and clip it on. I walk downstairs and put a bowl of cereal
MEANWHILE.. (Ashes POV)
(Tw: s3lf h4rm)
OF COURSE HE LIKES TRAVIS! OF COURSE THIS HAPPENS TO ME AS SOON AS I FALL FOR SAL!
Am i just mot good enough?!
..
MAYBE IM NOT. BUT I HAVE TO BE! I WONT EVER BE SEEN BY HIM OF IM NOT PRETTY ENOUGH
I frantically search for my bl4de, and grip it as I lay my fingers on it
This is what I get for not being pretty enough.
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fuck.. Now I can't wear short sleeves for weeks. Whatever.
I pull on a shirt, a sweater and a nice skirt. No time to eat, I have to be perfect for Sal.
I head to the bus stop and notice Sal and Larry talking as I excitedly jump in
A: "Hey larry! Hey Saaaal!"
L: "Sup Ash"
S: "Heya Ash!"
We continue to talk and get seats on the bus, I sit next to Sal!
He smells so good. And he's so pretty. a pretty boy!
I wander off into space, my eyes still locked onto Sal.
S: "Ash? Ashh?"
A: "Ah! Sorry Sal.. What are we talking about..?"
S: "How do I confront Travis about the letter?"
Travis again?? Why? He was so rude to Sal.
Does Sal have a thing with toxic people? Should I play hard to get? Am I pretty today?
S: "ASH!"
A: "Sal.. Travis is.. Hes a jerk!"
S: "Ash dont say that! He deserves a second chance"
A: "But he- Hes- He punched you- and-"
S: "That was weeks ago! We made up.."
A: "But you deserve someone better! Okay?!"
S: "Well do does Travis. You need to have at least some sympathy for people."
He walks off irritatingly. ASH WHAT THE FUCK?! ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE HIM MAD?! YOU FUCKING IDIOT! NOW SALS MAD! HE WONT EVER LOVE YOU STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
...
I walk into class with insecurity and panic filling my eyes with tears.
DONT CRY YOU IDIOT!
I never cry. My brother likes to call me emotionless. I never bring myself to cry but I like being tough. I cant ever cry..
Sal is probably talking shit about me with Travis. Then Larry will hate me and Todd too
Why am I so fucking worthless?
Tr: "Ash?"
Travis?
