Writing dump ( I got bored)

Exhaustion

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Emotionally depleted.

I feel unavailable yet I'm right there?

They ask for me yet do I answer? no,

I'm drained of all my energy spent waiting for what felt like for an eternity only to be served a cold plate of reality, cold hard truth and disappointment.

I was neither sad nor content, in-fact I was bewildered by how long it'd taken me to realise.. They could care less. 

That eternity felt lonely, insufferable, aggravating and excruciatingly...painfully....slow.

But of course it did, after all it was 'eternity'. Is there truly anything that's really eternal? Or at least anything human or to do with me?  Perhaps the misjudgements and mistakes of our leaders and ancestors are left behind, maybe some trees or the land itself although.. it's not like people really care do they? I mean millions of years on this Earth and we still continue to pollute it, people only live one life, people don't stay forever... but the land does, our knowledge, our mistakes, our culture, nature...

There's so many harmful problems worldwide- yet we by our selves can't face or solve them alone, some too cowardice to solve it, others too selfish afraid to loose their own materialistic things.. in their own materialistic system it seems to matter and be of more value then anything's else.

Alone we cant think of solutions for those millions of problems overthinking makes you tired.

Trying to solve other peoples problems makes you feel tired and really f**ken exhausted.

Moral of the story, assess yourself before you look at other peoples 'problems' , think how you can help yourself improve yourself and help others, be kind.

Although solving other peoples problems is exhausting and takes alot of work, being kind doesn't take that much even the smallest things like compliments helping people, donating that 1 dollar whatever it is, it doesn't take a lot to be kind. Kindness makes others happy although it doesn't solve problems it makes other peoples problems feel just for that moment.. a little better. 

{TYSM FOR READING IF U DID IM SORRY THIS MAY NOT MAKE SENSE BUT YKYK A BIT TIRED I UPLOADED THIS LATE AT NIGHT!}

btw yes this was me saying 'im tired of other ppls crap but you know what? i'll try to at least change their perspective to a more positive one so they can power through it.'

I don't have to waste my energy but I would like to help in some way even if its small.

(also blurred bc I dont know if I marked this as mature and dint wanna accidently make someone read some swear words yk-)