Despair - Undertale x Male reader

Knowing Oneself

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Y/N feels himself starting to cry, his hand subconsciously clutching the dark pink heart. Suddenly, Snowdrake stops preparing their ice blast. Instead, they fall to the ground in tears.

Y/N's eyes fill with more tears as his hand clutches his Soul harder, causing an aching pain to shoot through his body as an HP counter slowly decreases for both him and Snowdrake.

Y/N - 72...70...68...66...64...62

SD - 74...60...46...32...18...4

Percy: "Woah woah woah! Stop, you'll kill them!"

Y/N suddenly takes his hand away from his Soul, breathing heavily as he wipes the tears from his eyes. He looks at the Snowdrake, finding them on the ground with tears in their eyes, a blank and broken expression on their face, the monster Soul above their chest significantly cracked and broken.

"I'm not a disappointment....I'll... I'll prove it...I can prove it, please....don't leave me, dad....please don't leave me...."

Y/N: "....What....what did I just do....?"
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After a few minutes of confusion, Y/N pulls the Snowflake to a nearby building with the lights on and knocks on the door, quickly hiding along the side of the wall as two worried voices take him in.

Once everything has calmed down and Y/N had made it a decent distance through Snowdin, Joy used her Soul to heal Y/N's leg, and Percy spoke up soon after.

Percy: "S-So...uhm...A-Are we gonna....talk about that?"

Y/N: "...I don't see why. None of us have any idea what just happened. It wouldn'take sense to bother thinking about it."

Orlan: "Don't start. We saw how scared you looked afterwards..."

Joy: "...Are you okay?"

Y/N: "Am I ever okay?"

Orlan: "Stop deflecting and answer the question?"

Y/N: "I don't know, alright? I'm not scarred or anything, I've seen worse...just...never thought I'd be the cause of something like that..."

Y/N sighs, continuing to walk as he looks down, a dark pink heart appearing in front of his chest. He then gently puts his hand under it, and the moment he moves it forward, a menu pops up, causing him to jump.

HP: 68/72

Attack: 3

Defense: 10

Y/N: "What the hell is that??"

Percy: "Oh, that's just your menu! It shows your health points, your attack, and then your defense! Different clothes and accessories kind of act like armor."

Y/N: "....Really? How does that work?"

Celia: "Different items grant different effects depending on various factors, depending on how they make you feel, to how strong they are, or even sentimental value."

Y/N: "So the more something means to you, the more beneficial it's effects?"

Percy: "....Pretty much!"

Y/N: "So, can everyone with access to their SOUL see these menus?"

Orlan: "Not usually...it's mostly DETERMINATION SOULs, but yours..."

Percy: "Yeah, what IS your SOUL? It's all...murky and pink."

Y/N looks at it with the same confusion, signalling he has no idea.