heather | baewoo

heather

it was the third of december.
the members were going out to eat dinner together at a nearby mall.
snow was falling outside as jiwoo blew onto her hands, trying to keep them warm.

"are you cold, jiwoo yah?"
a voice came from behind her.
she turned around, surprised.

bae handed her a bright yellow sweater.
the blonde put it on hesitantly.

"do i look good in it?"
she asked the older.

"as expected, you really look good in it. better than i do."
her words made jiwoo blush slightly as bae wrapped her arm around her waist, spreading warmth to her body.

jiwoo felt that she could live in that moment forever.

it was now the tenth day of december.
the dorm was bustling as the members were busy putting up Christmas decorations and setting up the Christmas tree.
jiwoo was helping haewon put up some cute ornaments onto the tree.
a scene unfolding in front of her caught her eye.

sullyoon was giggling with bae as they were having a chitchat.
a few seconds later, sullyoon was trying to hang a small decoration onto the wall but could not reach it.

"can you reach it? let me help you."
bae offered, reaching over her to place it instead.
she placed a hand on sullyoon's waist out of habit so that the girl's body would be stable.

upon seeing that, jiwoo could not help but bite her lip in jealousy.
even though she knew bae and sullyoon were just as close to one another as she is to bae but she could also imagine how bae would have acted had it not been sullyoon doing it.
bae would have mostly probably burst out in laughter at her and joke about her height rather than offering to help her first.
for one, she knew that bae would never have treated her so gently.

she saw the way bae looked at the other everytime.
she just couldn't stand it.

the days quickly passed with the members working each day.
it was already the twelfth of december.
jiwoo realised that she had forgotten to return bae's sweater after washing it.

"jinsol unnie! here, your-"
she went up to bae enthusiastically.

"oh, jiwoo! i was just about to look for you. i was wondering if i could have my sweater back."
she uttered, looking at her with a small smile.

"yep! i was just about to return it anyway!"
she handed the yellow sweater over to the short-haired girl.

"thanks, my jyuu yah."
bae replied, giving her a small pat on her head.

not long after, she went out into the living room to get a drink of water.
there was bae and sullyoon watching a movie together, cuddled up.
bae planted a small kiss on sullyoon's cheek as thsy chuckled in unison.

she clenched her fists tightly, trying to calm herself down.
after all, bae doesn't belong to her and she had no right to say anything about it.
but upon walking closer to the two, she noticed that sullyoon was wearing the very sweater that bae had lent to her before.

she told herself it was nothing much.
just a sweater.
just a big piece of polyester.
but somehow, her heart still shattered into pieces at the sight.
she felt like crying but nothing came out.

it was fifteenth of december.
the members were on the way to another schedule and jiwoo just had to be seated behind the 'couple'.
lily and haewon were sitting in the same row as her and kyujin, sullyoon and bae were seated in the front row in that order in the van.
jiwoo tried not to let it bother her as the two in front of her were acting all lovey-dovey, with their hands interlocked together and bae's arm around sullyoon's shoulder.
she decided to listen to music and look out of the window.