My mum,rosie emhoff died a few months ago, June 16. She tragically died of cancer. The doctors told dad that she could make it if she stopped drinking and smoking. Dad told mum in the car, her in the passenger seat, dad in drivers, me and my brother sitting silently in the back, intently listening to dad tell mum what she did not want to hear. When dad told her she nodded and as soon as she got home she poured her a glass of gin and vodka, and continued with her pretzels, they argued that night, I heared everything. Mostly mum was going to die and I cried my teenage heart out.
I called my secret boyfriend that night, crying uncontrollably and he came over, quietly climbed through my window, and as first I thought he was hear to comfort me but he took advantage. He thought that since I'm in such a vulnerable state he could open up my legs and steal something from me. I immediately stopped him and he said I should bugger off, he broke up with me right then, when I was frantically on my bed, waiting for silence from the argument still happening downstairs, waiting for him to respond with a sorry, waiting for mum to die.
And now it is exactly 6 months from since her death and life has never been worse. School is like a living hell. I get bullied by Bradley van Der Kamp and Amelia shacks, the popular seniors. They are the perfect power couple. They obviously hate me with all their guts, just because in my freshman year of high school, I was this vulnerable 13 year old who didn't know if I must be this wannabe or be myself, obviously I chose the first option. I was part of this clique, a typical cliche, we were all freshman and we all wanted to fit in, we wore slutty clothes to school (my parents didn't know) we were smoking on school grounds (another thing my parents didn't know) my freshman bestfrien, keandra hacked all the cigarettes and weed. I never smoked like how they use to but I still did it. Anyways one day me and keandra just lit a cigarette behind the school, close to the benches, we were underneath the steps, and as we lit it we heard moaning, our stupid curious minds took a look and went around to find Amelia and Bradley having a pleasurable time (not gonna get into that) keandra ran away and I weirdly just stood there watching, I never saw this in my life and it was weirdly fascinating. My mum and dad never taught me any sexual orientation and thats why I was called weirdo.
I never saw two people have such a need for each other, mum and dad never showed it, I never saw people having sensations together.
I realized I was standing there too long and Amelia who pushed Bradley away started screaming at me, swearing me out like crazy, and that's when people started calling me town weirdo, or sexual rat. And my clique and keandra left me like I didn't even matter. Now I'm the one being bullied because of my parents who never taught me life basically.
It is a Tuesday evening, and I'm doing my physics homework that Mrs Phillips gave the entire class. I play my music loud through my speaker box and work silently.
Then there's a knock by the door.
I put my music softer and ask "what?!"
My brother Cade opens the door.
"oh because I did tell you to come in!" I say sarcastically.
"amy dad is calling us..." Cade says.
"tell him I'm coming now, I'm busy" I reply.
"no he wants to see us now Amy!"
I look at Cade and groan
"fine, I'm coming"
I get up from my desk and go downstairs, I go to the living room and I'm surprised by the sight of a woman beside dad.
"ammarah...cade, this is kamala"
I slightly frown.
"hello, I have heard so much about you guys!.. And you look so much more beautiful in person!" kamala says to me and Cade.
Me and Cade stands there silently confused.
Dad breaks the silence and says "this is the woman I met on my blind date"
I cringe at dad saying that.
"you went on a blind date..?" I ask.
"yes honey... A few weeks ago... And kamala is the woman I have been seeing... We are together ammarah" dad replies.
"you not serious right?"
Cade nudges me and speaks because he knows I'm going to explode.
"it is nice to meet you Kamala... Uhm I hope you feel welcomed"
Kamala smiles and looks at me.
I furiously look at her wanting to tear her head off.
"mum died six months ago and you already seeing someone!?.. Atleast show some fucking sympathy!" I look at my dad and kamala looks uncomfortable.
"ammarah! Go to your room! NOW!"
I look at dad, then at kamala.
"I hope you dont feel welcomed miss kamala"
And I retreat to my room and slam my door.
I hear mumbling from downstairs, alot of sorrys from dad and I hear Cade going to his room.
Kamala leaves after a while and dad knocks on my door and I ignore him, and put my music louder and lay on my bed. My physics homework can wait till later, because now I need to plot how to ruin kamala and force her to leave immediately.
(sorry guys, this is probably boring but it's my first time doing this and I have no ideas or anything, maybe some help?)
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Teen Fiction15 year old, ammarah emhoff is going through alot. She just lost her birth mother to cancer. Her secret boyfriend broke up with her and now she has to go through the break up alone because none of her family members knew. She is getting bullied by h...
