I Don't Know

Only One Way To Find Out (Hartbig)

"Hey dude! What are you doing here?" Hannah says smiling as she gives Grace a hug.

"Oh ya know I was just in the neighborhood and thought I'd uhh stop by."

"Since when does Grace Helbig wake up and go out before 8 o'clock in the morning?"

"I couldn't sleep. I uh... can we go inside and talk?"

"Um okay, sure. Is everything okay?"

Grace nods her head yes but starts to tear up. Hannah doesn't ask anymore questions and puts her arm around Grace as they walk inside.

When they get inside Grace sits on the couch and Hannah brings her a cup of coffee.

She gently asks, "So what's up? I hate seeing you sad."

"I um. It's just. I." Grace closes her eyes tight and takes a deep breath. "I have been confused. For the past few months."

"Confused about...?"

"My uh... um feelings for Chester."

"Are you guys okay? If he isn't treating you right then I will..." Hannah says defensively, but Grace cuts her off.

"And...you." She looks down and starts biting her finger out of embarrassment.

"I'm not sure I understand..." 

Grace covers her face with her hands. But Hannah consoles her by placing her hand on her back. 

"Grace, I want you to know that nothing you say or do could ever cause me to stop caring about you. You can tell me anything."

"Okay... Um... Ever since we had to do that kiss at the Streamy's, I have found myself thinking about you a lot. And I have always thought that I was straight, and things with Chester have been great. But I guess it just sparked some curiosity. And I um, wanted to figure out if it was just a curious feeling, or..."

Hannah puts her hand on Grace's neck and scoots closer, looking at her with an expression that says ready?  Grace affirms this look with a deep breath and a nod. With this Hannah slowly leans in. Grace closes her eyes and doesn't move until Hannah's lips are about an inch away, where she meets them. They stay in contact for a few seconds. So much is going through Grace's  mind: God this is amazing. What if Hannah thinks this is weird. What if she hates it. 

Grace jerks her head back because she doesn't want to come on too strong to Hannah, especially with out knowing her feelings about it. Grace bites her lip and starts to tear up because now she is more confused than ever.

"Shit Grace, what's wrong?"

"I have to go I'm sorry."

"No. Sit down and tell me what you are feeling. It isn't going to do you any good if you constantly bottle up everything you are feeling. Especially when it comes to your sexuality. Believe me. I have been there. And you don't want to do that."

"FINE. I loved it. Kissing you was amazing. But I have a boyfriend at home and you are my best friend who probably thinks this is so weird and dumb. And nothing makes sense. And I never..."

Grace is cut off by Hannah's lips on hers, who kisses her hard. She holds her lower back, pulling their bodies close together.

"I could never think you or this is weird or dumb. We are going to figure this out and this is the only way to do it. I have no problem with it. But let's continue this sitting down because I don't know how long I can stand on my tiptoes."

Before Grace can say anything Hannah kisses her again and the two sit back on the couch. They continue to make out, their hands all over each other. Hannah pulls Grace onto her lap so she is straddling her. She grabs her ass as she pulls their hips together. 

"How far do you want to go?" Grace breaths against Hannah's lips.

"As far as you need."

Grace stands up, grabs Hannah's hand, and leads her to the bedroom. When they close the door Hannah can tell Grace is really nervous. 

"It's okay. If you're not ready I understand."

"No I want to. It's just I have never... done it with a girl."

"Well don't you worry because I have. I'll walk you through it. But besides the actual sex part, it's the same thing you would do with a guy... but in my opinion... better."

Hannah walks up to Grace who is sitting on the bed, grabs both of her hands and places them on her collar. 

"Take my shirt off."

Grace complies and starts to unbutton the shorter girl's shirt then slides it off her shoulders. Hannah can tell that Grace is still being a little shy, so she puts the taller girl's hands around her waist. They start to kiss again and Grace's hand slides up Hannah's back to her bra and un-clips it. Hannah then takes Grace's shirt and pants off, softly kissing the newly revealed skin. After a short amount of time, the two end up laying on the bed, Hannah on top grinding her hips against Grace. Her hands slowly move down Grace's body and she slows down at her upper thigh. This causes Grace to start breathing heavily. 

"Stop , stop, stop!" Grace quickly says, trying to sit up.

Hannah quickly takes her hands off Grace and sits next to her. She grabs two blankets and puts one around Grace's shoulders to cover her exposed body and the other around herself. She doesn't ask any questions and waits for Grace to catch her breath. 

Finally Grace says: "I'm so sorry Hannah."

"Don't be sorry! I'm glad you said something. I wouldn't want to do anything you weren't completely comfortable with. And if it makes you feel any better, I did the same thing when I was with a girl for the first time... You okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine. It's just...I...I don't know."