our twisted love // jack grealish

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(Not the whole songs are in this, just the important lyrics. I have put the song names at the top of each one in bold) 

"HELLO EVERYBODY" I boom through the microphone, hearing all the cheers. ""I am so exited for tonight! I hope you all enjoy!" I cheer, moving to the centre of the stage. I hear the music playing, and begin.

(again - noah cyrus)

You just made the worst mistake
And you'll regret it, darling
'Cause once you give and then you take
You'll only end up wanting

as i sang, i could feel the emotion. i wasnt sure if it was because its the last concert, or if its because after this past year im finally cracking.

Was everything hard enough?
'Cause one day you'll wake up
And then you'll say

"I wanna be your lover
I don't wanna be your friend"
You don't know what you got 'til it's gone, my dear
So tell me that you love me again (Tell me that you love me again)
I, I wanna be your lover
Baby, I'll hold my breath
You don't know what you got 'til it's gone, my dear
So tell me that you love me again (Tell me that you love me)

The song ended with cheers, i knew it was going to get harder as the show went on. Its taken me a year, but im finally cracking. Why now? Why infront of thousands of people?

(heartburn- wafia)

Well, I guess what hurt me most of all
You were playing with my heart
Tell me, why am I emotional
When I knew it from the start?

I didnt realise it at any of the other shows, or any time i sang this song. But it hits hard. I wrote this when Jack played me at the start of us, now look at us. It's almost like an 'i told you so' from my past self.

Well, I guess what hurt me most of all
You were playing with my heart
Tell me why am I emotional
When I knew it from the start?
And tell me why does my heart burn
When I see your face?

i can feel my eyes slightly twitch, im praying to keep it together.

You have made your decision
Put me in my place
And the lies you've been hiding
Taking up your space
Tell me, why does my heart burn this way
When I see your face?

The cheering from everyone and even them singing along brought a smile to my face. It's crazy how much has changed, a few years ago i was coming out of love island, now im a professional singer.

(i love you - billie eilish)

It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Crying isn't like you, ooh
What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through, ooh

Maybe won't you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to, ooh

a tear slips out my eye, im trying my hardest to hold it together but so many memories rush through my head.

(guided lily - gults)

Now it's been long enough to talk about it
I've started not to doubt it, just wrap my head around it
I remember when you told me it's an everyday decision
But with my double vision, how was I supposed to see the way?

Its crazy how it all fits together, because it honestly has been long enough to talk about it. I couldnt sing any of these songs for the past year, i was too scared.

Haven't I given enough, given enough?
Haven't I given enough, given enough?
Haven't I given enough, given enough?
Haven't I given enough, given enough?

it all hits too close to home. I wrote this song about my parents, i never thought i would then be singing it about jack. Because i always feel like ive given enough, but i still feel pain. Why does it still hurt? Ive done so much to stop the pain, but it never goes away.

Always the fool with the slowest heart
But I know you'll take me with you
We'll live in spaces between walls
Go and stretch out my arms long as they need to be
Turn off all alarms and lie to me
Go and stretch out my arms long as they need to be
Turn off all alarms and lie to me

(Good in goodbye - maddison beer)

You put the "over" in lover, put the "ex" in next
Ain't no "I" in trouble, just the "U" since we met
'Cause you're toxic, boy
I ain't even gotta try to find the
G-O-O-D in goodbye

a smile creeps onto my face, the pain being pushed further down. Because when i thought about Josh, i felt no pain. Since about how much of a prick he is, makes me happy.

I would take a bullet for you just to prove my love
Only to find out you are the one holding the gun
I'm just tryna get focus
Take some time for me

(bad at love - halsey)

Got a boy back home in Michigan
And it tastes like Jack when I'm kissing him
So I told him that I never really liked his friends
Now he's gone and he's calling me a bitch again
There's a guy that lives in a garden state
And he told me that we make it 'til we graduate
So I told him that the music would be worth the wait
But he wants me in the kitchen with a dinner plate

it feels crazy singing this song live, i wrote this when i was 17. I never in a million years thought i would be singing this infront of so many people.

Look, I don't mean to frustrate, but I
Always make the same mistakes, yeah I
Always make the same mistakes 'cause
I'm bad at love (ooh-ooh)
But you can't blame me for tryin'
You know I'd be lyin' sayin'
You were the one (ooh-ooh)
That could finally fix me
Lookin' at my history
I'm bad at love

(this ones for you - zara larson)

We're born to fly
So let's keep living 'til it all falls down
Let's close our eyes
And let the moment drive the whole world out

Everything i felt before disappeared. When i wrote this song, my life was at its prime. It was the 2024 euros, i was with the people i love. As i sing, the smile didnt leave my face. I look out at all the people, when i see all my friends. They flew to America to watch my last performance?

We're in this together
Hear our hearts beat together
We stand strong together
We're in this forever
This one's for you
This one's for you

"And thats the end of the songs i will be playing from my first album! So here comes album 2!" I cheer, trying to hide the pain. This is Jacks album.