If I could write you a song ( Sockathan )

First of all

Sock:

I can't do this anymore..
Jonathan is still alive, and he is just ignoring me, whenever I try to talking him seriously about this stupid thing.. What if I can't make him kill himself..? I will fired out ! And I don't know what will happen with me then..

No one told me..
No one will..

So yeah.
Now, he is listening music (again) ..
And ignoring me ( again )..
And I tried to talk with him, but he just keep acting like I'm not here.
I can't even touch him, or take off his headphones. And if I could, he probably would kill me. .. Wonder where would I go then..
And this is just one of those problems of my days. I mean.. He keep saying that I'm annoying, and I could say, that he can be annoying too.

But just to change the subject, it's Monday.
And not only Jonathan, but I hate Mondays too.
I mean.. In Mondays, he is more grumpy and tired than whenever..
Like, .. One Monday morning, he was just woke up, and ignored me in the WHOLE MORNING..
like.. like, how could someone doing something like this ?
I wonder if he would has the same job as me, what would he do..
It's not even that easy, how everyone thinks !
How he thinks..

Now we are sitting in that bus.
He listening the music, and I sit next to him, try to thinking about an idea, to make him kill himself, what is totally impossible..  - If I could share my honest thought.
And it's even harder, when he is in his grumpy mood. And that grumpy mood is hits today, as always.

Hope, that in school he will calm down a little, and let down his walls, even if just a moment ...........

Okay, so... —!
As I said, I'm not a perfect English speaker, and if I would use google translate ALL the time, this book would never ends.. 😭
Soo.. I try to do my best, hope someone will give me some advice/inspiration or something..
Anyway, thanks for reading!

will continue... —

Baii— ^^