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HaoBin (Loving in Chains) pt1

🔞🔞🔞A little disturbing chapter with themes such as; abuse, self harm, manipulation, gaslighting.
Proceed with caution.

Zhanghao POV

I ran down the steps and sped walk to the black Toyota where Hanbin was waiting for me.

My eyes were hit by the bright sunlight and it was already 5 o'clock in the evening. Despite the sun threatening to blind me, I could see his gleaming eyes watching me as I made my way over to him.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

The corner of his lips raised a little forming a slight smile, and being a whipped fool, I smiled back. Mentally scolding myself to get a grip and remember how he hurt me, made me loose the smile as I repeated my question.

"I asked you a question, why are you here?" I didn't understand how he could still manage to smile at me after what he did to me.

"I miss you"

His eyes met mine and that was all it took for me to throw my composure out the window. The things he does to me.

"You shouldn't have hit me then. Leave my house Hanbin, and don't come back."

I'm sure he could hear the violent thumping of my heart in my chest as he licked his lower lip. He knew me too well, we've been together for seven years now, and that made me feel like I was standing naked before him.

"It looks like you missed me too, stop pushing me away Hao, You know I love you. What happened was a temporary slip up, I promise it won't happen again" he pleaded.

"That's what you said the last time, I'm done trusting you" I didn't sound as angry as I wanted, in fact, I couldn't control my feelings and the hold he had on me.

Honestly, I felt relieved to see him again, I was happy he looked okay and seemed to be doing well. I had missed him during these past few days I spent ignoring him and I've even been waiting for him to come and apologize for what happened. I was even tempted to go see him but with Lucas in the picture, that was impossible.

"It's been six days babe, you know I can't live without you. Please baby" he pleaded.

"It's not in my hands anymore, Lucas hyung is angry. He doesn't want to see you anymore. He hates you and hates me dating you more" I explained, unable to hold my composure.

"Come on Hao, it's not the first time this happened and we're still together. Your brother cannot, nor will I let him stop us. We should live together now? I can move out of the dorms by next week and getting a new house is very easy"

"No Binnie, I don't think you can do that right now. It's barely five years since your debut, they won't let you."

"You know I'm the pillar of the company, I get what I want everytime as I'm the most successful idol they've ever brought out. And my members, they're all riding on my back, they should be grateful, stupid bums" he hissed, clenching his fists.

Hanbin and I met in highschool, my brother was transferred here for work and him being my only family, I moved here with him. My daily life were filled with studying, nothing more and nothing fun in my life until I met him.

Our first meeting was like a cliche romance movie, It happened in the field during sports period. Me being a bookworm, had my English textbook in hand while the others were playing dodgeball. I happened to be the only Chinese kid in our year so I was bullied quite a few times, nothing serious though.

My head shot up after hearing my name, I saw the ball coming straight for my head at full speed,with no time to properly process what was happening, talk more of avoiding the hit. Giving up, I closed my eyes shut while waiting for the hit that never came. I slowly opened my eyes and was blinded by the sun when I tried to look at the angel who saved me.

He blocked the sun with his body and that's when I finally saw his face. He had the prettiest smile on when he asked me if I was okay when he was the one hit. That was the first time I got interested in something other than books.

I fell for him hard.

Yes, it was love at first sight.

We started dating not long after, graduating together. Shortly after graduation, my cute and loving boyfriend started to show the violent sides of him that I didn't know existed which came as a shock. He finally fulfilled his dream as an idol, It only got worse from there, but I still loved him.

He was good to everyone, his members, his fans, everyone except me. He was good to me too but I couldn't understand why only I got to see his bad sides. It started from little insults when he was in a bad mood, to slight pushes but I still didn't care because he never actually hit me and I loved him.

Then came the day Renjun had been warning me about, he finally hit me. I still remember it clearly, it was our fourth year anniversary as a couple, we had a small disagreement on our way to dinner making Hanbin lose his temper and slap me so hard I thought I was dreaming. He told me he was sorry, and I believed him because I loved him.

I cut ties with Renjun shortly after because Hanbin said he was a bad influence. He promised to get better but he didn't keep his promise. He swore to never hit me again but still did, It became too frequent that I couldn't even tell what I did wrong, some incidents ended with trips to the hospital but I didn't leave him, because I love him.

Five, six and now we're in our seventh year, I'm still deeply in love with him despite going through the same shit up until now. He still hasn't changed, he still hasn't kept any promise he made to me.

I knew it would still happen as long as he doesn't quit alcohol and drugs but I love him, that's all that matters right?

"Hanbin... I'm in pain, until when will I have to suffer" He sighed in reply then moved closer to a me, taking me in his arms as tears trickled down my face.

"I'm sorry" he choked, I could tell he was trying not to cry.

"My whole body aches... But that's nothing compared to how I feel inside." I cried

"I'm sorry baby, I promise to not drink again, I'll even go for therapy once we move in together. I'll change, I want to be a better man for you, I'm sorry I keep making the same mistakes, I didn't mean to hurt you" his voice trailed off and was replaced with soft sobs.

"Don't forget you promised"

"Sure thing baby, see how sincere I am about changing" he said rolling up his sleeves to show me his wounded wrists.

"Oh my goodness, why did you do this?" I cried, tracing my fingers along the cuts.

"It's my way of punishing myself for hitting you, let this show my sincerity and will to change for you. I love you Hao"

"I love you too Bin"

He felt remorse for his actions, and once again I decided to forgive him, why? Because I loved him. Others might think I'm insane or foolish, they're quick to judge when they know nothing and have never been in love.

Loving someone is about sacrifices, forgiveness and understanding. So I'm not crazy, because unlike other people, I don't do things halfheartedly, even when it comes to love.

Hanbin will change, I just know it. A day will come when he finally treats me well, when he'll finally put me first over every other thing. I trust he'll be able to do it.

There's something different about his apology today, I could feel the sincerity in his words.

Time will tell, and I'm not going to give up on us no matter what happens,

Because I love him.

And that's what matters.

1430 words
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