Sukoon-Yeh-Ishq ( Love Is Peace )

Chapter 10

Anina's pov

Right now we are sitting in our chamber.
I was sitting on the bed while Sultan's head was resting on my lap.
I was stroking his hair softly.
To be honest his hair was pretty soft.
The way he was laying in my lap was giving me butterflies in my stomach.
He looked like a child.
Suddenly the conversation which we had made me sad.
Slowly slowly I slipped in the chain of thoughts of the event that happened moments ago.

Flashback

He started dragging me with him towards the chamber.
As soon as we entered the chamber he closed the door with a *Thud* sound.
He left my hand and sat on the bed while his back faced me.
I could see his hand clutching the bwthsheet tightly.
His veins popped up because of the pressure he was putting in them.
I was scared to be honest.
He was looking very scary.
I closed my eyes for a moment said to myself 'you know he won't hurt you. Right now all he needs is someone to understand and you are his ardhangini ( wife) so be his shield.
With that I opened my eyes and started walking towards him.
"Nahi Anina" ( No Anina ) He warned without looking at me.
'How did he know that I was coming?' I thought in my head.
"Aapko hum mehsoos Kar sakte hai Anina. Huma aapko dekhna ki zarurat nahi hai" ( I can feel you Anina. I don't to necessarily look at you to know that you are coming towards me or not)
A small smile formed on my lips.
My faith and believe in him increased.
I know he loves and will never harm me. These thoughts filled my head.
I kept walking towards him even after him telling me not to.
I knew he needed warmth but was not asking for it.
Slowly I grabbed the edge of the bed and kept my right leg on the bed to climb up.
As soon as I touched in shoulder I could feel his whole body relaxing.
His back was still towards me.
Showing some courage I went infront of him and what I saw next made my heart pain terribly.
His eyes were red and his cheeks were strained with tears.
His eyes showed vulnerability in them and I hated it.
I wanted to take away all of his pain but the realisation of how practically impossible it is made my heart feel hopeless.
"Humna aapko mana Kiya tha Anina aap kyu aayi?" (I warned you to not come to me then why did you do so?)
He said with softness in his eyes.
"Hum bhala kyu na aaye ? Begum hai hum aapki" (why should I not come? I am your wife after all)
I answered back mumbling.
"I can hurt you" he replied back.
"No, you cannot. You cannot even see me in pain." I answered him while cupping his face.
His beard was tickling my palm.
I noticed how he melted due to my touch.
He closed his eyes and let himself feel the comfort that he was getting from me.
"Aapko pata Hai kabhi kabhi Jo huma saalo sa janta hai woh hamara dukh nahi samajh pate" (You know sometimes the ones who know us from years fail to understand us)
He mumbled while his eyes were still closed.
"Aur yeh baat humsa aacha koi aur nahi Jan sakta hai" (and no one can know this better than me)
I said stroking his hair.
"Anina aapsa ek baat kahe?" (Anina can I say something?) He asked his eyes still closed.
"Ji kahiya" (yes say) I replied back.
"Aap humsa na kabhi dur mat jayega. Huma na aapki aadat hogayi hai.
Phehle bhi hamara paas sab kuch tha. Ek pura khandan tha jo hamesha khush aur saath mein rehta tha.
Phir ek din sab kuch humsa dur hogaya. Aur hum ekdum akele hogaye. Itna ulajh gaye iss Sultanate mein ki phir akele rehna hamara liya maano aadat bann gaya. Phir hamari zindagi mein aap aayi. Allah par sa Jo vishwas hamara utha tha ussa aapna wapis laya. Khuda Kasam Anina agar aap huma ab chor Kar chali gayi na toh humsa bardast nahi hoga. Hum maar jaenga Anina" (Never go away from me. You have become a habit of mine. Previously also I had everything. I had a family who used to be happy and used to always stay together but then one day I lost everything and become totally alone. Then with time I got so tangled in this kingdom that being alone became my habit. Then you entered my life. The faith which was gone from Allah because of you again came back. Now if you go Anina I won't be able to survive. I swear I will die without you.)
He said and I noticed that tears were coming out from the corner of his eyes.
I never imagined that I would ever see a person like him crying and that too for me.
I soft pulled his hand and tapped on my lap indicating for him to lay his head there.
He understood what I was doing and kept his head on my lap.
My hands were still stroking his hair while my eyes were making eye contact with his.
His eyes held pain in them.
God knows for how many years he didn't open up about his pain to anyone.
"Boliya na Anina aap nahi jayengi na huma chor Kar?" (Say na Anina you won't leave me and go right?)
He asked again like a child.
"Where will I go leaving you Sultan? You know the way you care for me no one has ever done that. The way you love me no one has ever made me feel that way.
You literally read my eyes. You don't even have to look to know if it's me or not. You understand every little thing of mine.
You make me feel loved.
In my place except my dad everybody hated me. No one ever loved me but you Sultan you make me feel strong.
You are my family. I don't know what will I do without you Sultan" I said while my tears were threatening to spill out of my eyes.
Stabilizing my shaky breathe I continued
"Aapka Bina hum ek kadam tak nahi
Chal sakte chor ka jana toh bohot dur ki baat hai" (without you I cannot even take a single step so therefore leaving you is a very far away topic)
Hearing this he gave me a smile and then closed his eyes.
I got lost in my thoughts but my hands were still stroking his hair while his head was on my lap.

End of flashback

He feel asleep on my lap and I sat there still thinking about Arman and his wife Rooh.
When I interacted with Rooh and Arman I did not find them strange.
I don't know what is going on with them but all I know is I will make sure that these brothers come together.
I know there is a family politics going on and I will make sure to get a hold onto everything for Sultan, My Sultan.
I cannot see him in pain and I will do everything it takes to get him out of this trap.
____________________________________

This story will be updated once or twice a week