He Doesn't Exist?

Ch: A. The Love Of The Man Who Does Not Exist

The somebody person, a dreamer and someone who aspires for a good and decent life. When he prays to God, his requests are all about worldly things. It may be for his personal ambition or his desire for a successful life he dreams of, but the lowly, the poor, and the hopeless in life. When he asked God, it wasn't for money or wealth, but he prayed for God to extend his life, so that he could see his loved ones grow old with him. While praying like this, he was willing to stake all his blessings for this wish.

As they say, there is a big difference between high and low people when it comes to prayer, but who among them does God answer? The answer and thoughts of God are greater than the thoughts and questions of man. So if either of the two had their prayers answered by God, it means that the holy God's decision for them was perfect and all of God's answers are faithful and perfect.

Chapter: A

The love of the man who does not exist

It's funny to say this, but every time I see a CCTV camera, I really show off and wave, and sometimes when I'm alone, I even dance. I do this not because I'm losing my mind, but because in this way, I can know that I exist in some way. I am alive, but sometimes it feels like I don't know it. I have many acquaintances, and when we are together, it feels like I am just a wind when I am with them. Like the wind that just passes by and will disappear one day, I feel like I'm just strolling through this world, waiting for a vehicle to pick me up and take me back to the place where I truly belong. But during my stroll in this world, I didn't expect to fall in love with someone who was not destined to be with me in life or in theirs.

My whole life here on Earth has been spent waiting for when I will leave this world. But just when I thought my departure from this world was near, that's when I started to feel it. I felt what is called love for someone I never expected would be the person I would love. I can say that God is incredibly good at writing the story of a person. God allowed someone like me to fall in love, and it just so happened to be with someone who faithfully serves God. I don't know how long I will last in this world, but as long as I am here, I still have the chance to see the woman I love. I don't need to tell this person how I feel. It's enough for me to see her and be happy that it seems one day God will bless her, I don't know if I will still be around when the time comes that God has favored her.

There are times when God allows us to talk. "Don't you have anyone to go home with?" I asked her. She replied, "Nothing, but I can go home by myself." "I will accompany you home," I suddenly said to her, because I was worried about her. I thought she would refuse me, but fortunately, she agreed. This was the first time we talked just the two of us; we rarely acknowledge each other because she has a lot to do or sometimes she has many people to talk to, and I can't find a moment to squeeze in. Our conversation went well, and I didn't speak much because I preferred to listen to what she was saying. But when she said something about what she was going through, I didn't say anything, not because I didn't care. To be honest, I wanted to tell her that everything would be okay, but I remembered that many people were already saying and cheering her up.

People like me who have feelings or love for her, so what's the point of telling her this? It's natural because she is really a beautiful woman, so many people desire to have her. Therefore, one day when I leave this world. I don't need to worry anymore because there are many people who love her. I believe that God has a beautiful plan for her life, and even if I'm not part of it, that's okay. Because I am just a wind passing by, and one day I will disappear into the clouds. If before I was in a hurry to leave this world, now I pray to God to grant me even a little more time to see her and her smiles. But in the end, let God's will be done in my life and not my own.