Today we spent our recess with Dickie and Camelia. We talked about tomorrow's lessons, and Dickie is convinced that Mrs. Gibbit will have us do some kind of surprise test, just like she did last year. I believe he is right, and so do both Camelia and Oscar. Jay was kinda unfazed about this, and changed the subject. They talked about TV series and I dissociated most of the time.
I felt out of place, but I can't understand why since everything seemed normal. Dickie and Camelia seems like nice people, but it just felt odd to be there. I felt observed and judged, even tho they were being polite and trying to include me as much as they could, especially Dickie.
Jay and Oscar get along well with almost everyone in class and it hurts sometimes. The fact that I'm no exception, the thought of them secretly despising me. I wouldn't blame them, and I know it's selfish of me to just... wish to be "exclusives". I know I should be grateful, change perspective and all that stuff I keep talking about with Marshall. I can't help but be unsatisfied with this whole situation I've created. Nothing feels right and this, surely, isn't enough.
I should just... study.
I need to breathe and focus. I need to be ready for whatever happens tomorrow.
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Please, don't relate.
General FictionHi. Just here to say that this is someone's diary. Please, whatever you may read, don't be too harsh with your judgment. And, please, don't relate.
