There feelings I feel the pain I feel it comes it waves never giving any hints never giving any warning of the pain that is about to come upon.
It hurts it feels good it awful the feelings say so much its hard to understand what im feeling I want to be happy I want to cry I just want every thing to stop I feel as if its my fault every thing is happening I blame myself for never being good enough never being able to make you happy making u see how much I love you and I am in more pain than ever cause this thing that’s about to happen means ill never again have a chance with you never again will I be able to hold you it kills me the more and more I think the more I want to cry but every day I wake up to say good morning to u and you say (talk to you later ) I try to ack like it doesn’t bother me and the fact I got demoted and the day before I lost you for ever. Kills me its too much in too soon amount of time I couldn’t handle it
Im starting to lose hope for the future like nothing is going to ever turn out the way I hope like life just keeps chiting on me and I have to just take it cause your never really there when I need you most it I try and keep clam but threes so much that’s hurting me I know not how much long I can last for the pain is over whelming and it its just too much
I feel as it im just dead and just walking the same old routine everyday and all my life I strive to be different but much can one person take before he brakes and losses control of every thing and he just stops care and he quits his job for he just don’t have any thing he feels is worth fight for he just sits and goes into virturereality and hides from the real world enjoy the only thing he knows is real and it is fake same thing he feels comfort bowl not having to get hurt by the choice of the game he plays just playing another game to beat it and move on so he don’t get hurt and he I feel so aloen even though you say I got you f=there for me I feel as if
